news...but bad news

Somebody is stepping my luck!!!
It's sucks!
It's sh!t !!!

Received lots of bad news...and bad things keep on happening on me...
I tried hard to be optimistic but each day i wake up,the condition is getting worst!
It's been 3 months i didn't have period!
Pregnancy thingy is not the thing that i need to worry about coz i'm not involve in any sex relationship BUT my skin is getting worst due to this problem...Dr's medic cannot work,productssss cannot work,hormone cannot work..
Oh Gosh!I'm so so abnormal...

Why har??suddenly seems like things change to become worst le?
Somemore,i cannot rent the room that i wish dy coz it's being rent out to other people dy...
So,means that after 10June,i got no place to stay...
Staying with my cousin at Cheras now is already a BIG problem for me to go to uni everyday and i felt guilty to disturb him for that long too...
i need a place to settle down..tired of shifting here and there...

and besides,i really miss those good old days where i used to have when i was in UTAR with that bunch of piggie doggie friends...
miss those moments that i used to have...
don't think that i will have that kind of life in Help...

Woke up this morning,with lots of problems need to be solve and other stupid stuff spinning in my head,suddenly...feel like giving up in life!
I don't wish to continue my life like this...like now...it's completely unacceptable...and it's really SUCKS!
feel like commit suicide...just cross the road and let the car bang on me then done!
i'm done and gone!

I'm not happy...
I never happy ever since i came back to here...
Don't know how to make myself happy...
My cheer leader is not here...
Everyone is busy with their life,so as a half adult,i know that i should handle all this stuff my own and overcome it...
perhaps,give me sometime...
As Jen said: This is just a beginning...Everything happen for a reason and i happen to be in this world with this sucks situation now is also must be some reason behind...
So,i still need to keep it up and learn to be tough...take it as a trainning programme lor...
Someday,Sometime,Somewhere...i will know..
and it should be a very good reason to explain my WH questions...
better be something that worth my waiting!


No news is good news = )

seeking H A P P I N E S S

Another day had gone and passed away...
I feel not right...
I feel down...
I feel abnormal....
I feel strange...

I don't know why do I feel that way....
I am depressed!
I lost my way and lost of directions...lost of confidence to go on...
Suddenly,i feel a failure of life...

It's my first day attend classes at HUC...
It's a completely new environment,new faces to me....
Half way to my dreams getting closer and nearer but to be honest,i didn't feel happy...
I don't feel that i like this place...but there's no turning back for me....
I need to go on,and i know that,realistically!
Didn't eat anythg since i wake up till end of class at 2pm....
and while i was waiting for bus to go back,it started to rain,HEAVILY....DAMN!
Since i didn't have umbrella,i cannot walk back to the place i stay ritenow as i used to walk abt 10 mins from lrt to my 'home'...
So,I need to get a place to go...

So,I go to KLCC alone...
Walking alone in the crowds,with no destination,I feel EMPTY.LONELY.WEIRD.
I don't know what to do or what should i do...
Perhaps,i can call someone for date...blind date or whatsoever... but it's really pointless to date with someone that is not my favour...It won't help any to make me feel any better or happier...
I don't want to waste ur time...I don't want to give any false hope to anyone of you and then end up hurting you and myself....
I am tired of the so called 'love game' or 'trap' of desperado...
I am depressed,lonely and need love BUT I AM NOT DESPERATE!
Sick with desperado and guys with 'come and go' hurting me...
Perhaps,i am really a bloody idiot to make believe that true love does exist and they are sincere.
It's all just an illusion...and when the picture gets clearer,it's time to AWAKE!
Naive in love is my weakness and it's time to WAKE UP and be REALISTIC!
I don't even want to spend any wasted second with people that are not my favor.
So,if i ignored u,u better b smart a bit...STAY AWAY FROM ME!

My family went to travel overseas dy and i am really alone here.
I need their support...I need to talk and share with them everything here with me...
I need them to shower me with love and tell me that everything gonna be alright and i can do it fine...
I miss them badly...
No matter what happen,their love that shower me is EVERLASTING and will not change...and i realise it,each day i grown older...
Dad and Mum and my adorable siblings,they mean the world to me...

Gladful to say,i owned some good friends...
My friends might not be many,but they are all really good friends...
Luckily i met them and are friends with them...
Everything that they did for me really touch my heart and thousand words of 'thank you' is not going to be enough to dedicate to them for their helping hand whenever i was in need.

Every Failure brings a step closer to Success~
Fitness First coach said: When I am sad,I work harder!
So,Xinyi...work harder!!
I shall see the light of happiness is waving hand welcoming me in this near future = )

recent updates

又过了一个周末了。。。唉~我还在懊脑着该去哪，怎样才会做到最好。。。很烦哩！

但想想，比起那些可怜的四川灾民还在为了生存而挣扎，自觉自己幸运也幸福许多。。。
我确实应该感到庆幸。。。那一些小小考验算什么？！没什么，熬一熬，咬紧牙关，跟自己说，都会过去的！

我家这一区的电话线被贼偷了。。。不能上网。。。害我瞎无聊的。。。
原想翻阅九把刀的《月老》的，却被妈给叫去干活了。。。
妈叫我去煮绿豆糖水要拿去慈济仪卖，积点功德。。。
换作是以前的我，或许我还想懒散，堵多推塘。。。但今天我没有。。。
近来，想了很多。。。很多人都跟我说我妈很疼我，甚至友人羡慕我妈可以对我做到有求必应。。。
哈~没有那么夸张啦！“有求必应”？？？那不就比拜神还灵？？
但是，说实在的，妈真的很疼我。。。我是知道的。。。
她为我付出了那么多，我不该再对她小小要求而埋怨。。。况且，她只不过是真心地为我好。。。
所以呢，可以做到的，我都会尽责。。。
假期以来，每天都会陪妈去做晨跑。。。今天周末，那就帮她洗地板吧！
洗了（42 x 90）方尺的地板，一个字，爽！洗地板期间，亦忆起了童年时和心怡一起洗澡时用肥皂泡来滑她家洗澡间的地板。。。回想起来，小时候的我们真的很好笑。。。哈~ （Y雨，你该不会怪我写在这里吧？！）
体会到妈妈的伟大。怀胎九个月不好过，扶养孩子成人更不容易。。。
所以,虽然母亲节过了，还是很想说：

妈，母亲节快乐！
愿天下所有的母亲都可以健康快乐！

结束了。

坐在这角落，心里很多话想说。。。
爱不在，应该让自己从回忆中离开。。。
爱不在，我们都已不存在在彼此的未来。。。
有时候，不管对爱还有多少的依赖，就算再不愿意再伤心，我明白我们只能分手。。。
不舍得放手，是我的错。。。
选择掉进这无底洞的人是我自己，是我的错。。。
任由自己的眼睛见证那残酷的事实，是我的错。。。
相信你，也是我的错了吗？？？
我的天真，是我的错。。。

和你分手后，我的心就好像放了一颗炸弹，炸了一个大洞。。。
然后你又出现，害我的伤口又再次斯裂了，让我痛得无法意识这只是一段感觉，已经不是爱了。。。
所以，从现在开始，我们感情归零。。。
我真的再也没有多余的心力去爱或恨你了。。。

此刻，聆听着罗忆诗的《别再哭了》。。。

结束了，就不该再拉扯。。。
结束了，我该往前走，去拥抱那属于我的天空。。。
有一天，我将拥有一双燃烧着火焰的美丽翅膀，在天空傲翔。。。

0707196 献 眼镜军团

眼镜军团六人行

那晚，我们都和烟火一样，笑得很灿烂。。。
我们的笑容可以拯救彼此的失落。。。
旦愿那一刻可以永恒。。。

此刻，我在聆听着《仨人》。。。
我们相识的时间并不长，但喜怒哀乐尽尝。。。
因为有你，染上新的幽默。。。
也因为有你，世界变得轻松。。。
我们属于非常难得。。。

朋友，谢谢你们这些日子以来带给我最真挚的感动。。。
我们共同拥有过的回忆会陪伴着我一生。。。


离别前的最后一张合照。。。

回到家，一个人，打着短讯给在回KL路途中的朋友。。。

打着打着，泪就流了。。。

了解人有悲欢离合，但我还是会不舍。。。真的很不舍。。。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

晓吉力说她坚信这不是最后，所以泪不可以流。。。

Evelyn说：我们不是解散，只是暂时分散。。。

有一天，我们一定会再相聚。。。

细细回味一起度过的那些日子，我们都笑了。。。

这一次，一定会比烟火来得更灿烂。。。

别了，0707196。。。

悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来;

我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。（徐志摩）

但我不是徐志摩。。。

the rain

It's raining now...raindrops~ lotsa raindrops~~~
Staring out from my window pane...
listening to Leona Lewis - Yesterday...
Suddenly,all the memories holding me back,again...

I'm not sad.no longer crying...
I can still find strength to keep myself going on...
There will be someone that is destine for me,one day...
I'll be waiting...

P/s : tomorrow need to sit for final ler...need to continue study to score well for my CGPA...
take a shower and i shall continue study dy...ciao~

夜来疯

夜的来袭，抱着熊熊入睡才能感到安心。。。

对你的眷恋，也只有一个人的时候才会层现。。。也只能够把熊熊抱得更紧。。。

当你觉得我冷漠的时候，你会否明白那是因为我还在乎？

承认我是弱者，不敢再对爱假设。。。

带着一颗平常心，不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛。。。

不想当 Miss D ( Desperado ) 。。。不想随便牵起一只手然后又分手。。。

太容易得到手了的爱，会比较不懂得珍惜吧？！

不会再问为什么。。。我知道我只能一直往前走。。。

熊熊会一直陪着我。。。

恋空

刚看完了一部日剧叫<<恋空>>。。。

很久没有如此地感动到哭了。。。

夜深人静，一个人烧日剧到哭。。。

这部片让我找回了以前最单纯地感动的感觉。。。

我还可以相信吗？

还会有那么地单纯，美好的感动吗？

我看着今晚的夜空，湾湾的残月发出光芒，满天的星星在闪耀着。。。彷佛对着我笑了。。。

今夜的天空是温柔的。。。

一张纸条

今天，遇上了些不顺心的事。。。大学的申请手续有麻烦了，我的留学梦就只差那一步。。。
我犹豫了。。。我究竟在干着些什么。。。没有梦的人生还剩下些什么？！
在我猛啃着苦味巧克力的当儿，我的室友为我送上一本书，附送着一张小纸条。。。

纸条上是这样写着的：
-人，来到世界上，是为着学习新事物，并借着学习新事物，来提升自己的灵性境界。

-事情总是来来去去，有些事带来一些快乐，有些则令人不悦。但不论发生什么事，一切都会过去，都会结束的。* 都会有解决的一天。

-任何你没学会的功课，都会以不同的面貌不断地出现在你生命中，直到你学会这门功课为止。

晓真，谢谢你。

因为你，我在脑子里列下了许多美好的清单。。。
想想，才不想让一朵小乌云把我的整片天空遮蔽呢！
我会努力做好我的功课，直到老天批我及格为止！
如果要累积100个不如意来换1个如意，那到时候一定要给我最好，最好，最最最好的！


每一个问题都是上天的恩赐 ~
Your Disappoitment is HIS Appointment ~

喵~喵~喵~

喵~

没什么，只是突然很想撒娇。。。

想抛开所有的束缚，任性地撒娇。。。。


刚挂了我的SotplaK导师-嘉怡的电话，连她也说我SotplaK了。。。lol
每天都要装出一副铁金刚的样子，偶而SotplaK一下也好嘛。。。


每个人接起话筒第一句总会问：“有什么事吗？”
非要有事才可以找你们吗？
有时候，有些事只不过是个借口。。。
所以，请你们下次不要冷漠地逼问我有什么事了。。。
我不过是想听听你们的声音。。。
会有这么的时刻，是我想你们了。。。


天气冷得快冻成冰了。。。
现在最想去一个地方------〉情人温暖的怀抱。
可我现在没有情人啊，只好躲到被窝里暖一下下咯。。。


喵~

谁又会拾起我的飘流木？

喵~喵~喵~

静璇说我这张照像猫。

没错！我其实天性像猫。。。

偶儿，我会很慵懒，我会撒野，更本领撒娇。。。

可是，我却是个不会捉老鼠的猫。。。

喵~~~

裕希

有好消息！有好消息！妈刚告诉我Tsuchida一家人下个星期将回来待几天。。。
Yeah!兴奋~我很兴奋~ la la la ~~~
我会见到Yuki吗？
那个把我的名字写在沙滩上，跟我鸡手鸭脚比划着的裕希。。。
好久不见，他会不会跟以前一样地Cool？
裕希啄着口香糖，赛摩多和赛车的样子最酷了！
我们都长大了。这一次我们还会用“石头`剪刀`布”来打赌吗？
很期待我们的再次会面。。。; )

如果有去海滩，我们再一起找螃蟹洞，捉螃蟹，好不？

看我99变~ lol

朋友问: How's life?
我答: C-O-N-T-E-N-T-E-D !! Yeah,i live a contented life lately = )
活着真好。原来每一天都可以过得如此充实。。。

近来忙着培养书卷味，女人味，也包括SotplaK味。。。哈哈哈~
都多得一群Sotplug的piggie doggie friends...lol
这几天常逛The Garden 的Borders书局。。。一呆，就是一整天。。。差一点就要被那儿的Starbucks和The Borders black-listed 了。。。lol

在Starbucks看书时拍的。是不是多了份书卷气了呢？嘻嘻。。。
我还要看很多很多的书呢。。。还有很多没有看完。。。我正和书恋爱啊！

够不够女人味？！不够我再加！！ XD 变！变！变！仙女棒会让我见证魔法，摇身一变，变白，变漂亮。我要像李嘉欣一样，那么地女人，迷人。。。 = ）

快乐可以是自找的。

我的每一个“今天”都和shinny peoples度过。。。

我笑了。。。也"siao" = "sotplak"了。。。lol

Delete昨天的烦恼，

Select今天的快乐，

Log In明天的幸福。

你Delete了吗？也Select了？那就快Log In了吧？！

笑一个吧！（要露出牙龈的那种噢！）

= )

I belongs to myself

理智上，人，是独立个体的。
你有权保留你的隐私，有权拥有你的自由，有权追寻你的快乐，有权选择你自己的人生，更有权不爱我。。。
可惜，爱情是会让人不理智的。。。
而你，往往都很理智。。。
所以，我们不曾属于彼此。。。
We are never belongs together.

我不傻。
当你不爱我，我不会继续守候。不会守候一段已经消逝了的爱情。
即使再怎么放不下也好，我再也不想当傻瓜。。。

承诺给得太轻，那些也只不过相同于谎言。

你不是我的Lego,so I let you go。。。

and I belongs to myself,back again...

在家的心情写照

城市里，花花世界的灯火虽然诱人；但我一个人，是寂寞的。。。
回到家里，我有家人。。。我，不是一个人。。。

在家里，弟妹们嬉戏的欢笑声，爸爸深沉的教诲声，就连妈妈的唠叨声。。。都会温暖我心房。。。
这几天，我很努力地当个好女儿，好姐姐。。。
我想成为你们的骄傲。。。
我想要你们开心因为有我的存在。。。

妈，对不起。。。请你多忍耐一下下。。。请你再给我多一点点时间。。。请你一定要相信我。。。
我在学习中。。。在成长中。。。在改善中。。。
人生还未到尽头，一切判断未免有点太早了吧？！
留得青山在，不怕没柴烧。
所以，不要放弃！
时间可以为我证明。。。我可以！！


GiVe me OnE MoMenT in TimE,When I'm mOrE thAn I thOuGht I cOuLD Be~

Like Flowers,though I may not be as great as early bloomers,but I will definitely BLOOM one day!

My Whim and Fancy

Thought of going to Matta fair and get a haircut with Phoebe yesterday...but just end up with shopping only...again,shopping!

I hardly fall with any stuff with LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT...but i did today!for a BCBG watch!!
i wore my Swatch for years dy...and it's still in good condition...that's why i did not plan to look for any new watch...About 2 years ago,i like a Fossil watch but yet,i didn't go for it because my lust for it is not strong enough...but today,the BCBG really make me feel irressitible to own it.

~My Lust.My Desire.My Want~

My future desire for watch gonna be Longines.But i can't afford to own it rightnow yet.Besides,wearing a Longines at this age like me will be a bit too mature dy.hehe ^^

I never stop thinking about owning it,but yet i am not willing to go for it.It's Christian Dior-Dior Addict 2 perfume!It's just an EDT fragrance but it's so damn expensive!The price make me say no-no to it but i'm really craving for the scent!!

The Scent that I will never forget :

~The Radiance.The Tenderness.The Sensuality~

Another future desire of fragrance gonna be Chanel-Chance!
Besides,i'm also aiming for a Gucci handbag...Perhaps,u gonna spell me S-P-O-I-L-T!
Whatsoever,it's all just my Whim and Fancy.
I'm going to take the job to work at PC fair and maybe some other part time job in future to satisfied all my wants because I WANT WHAT I WANT!


Since I'm turning to 21 this year,I am more assure about what i want for my future.

A for A grade types of life!

F for Family and Friends!

G for Glitters!

H for Health!

L for Lush and Love!

Q for Quality!

S for Smiley = )

W for Wisdom!

Z for Zest!

and i'm going to make my DREAM COME TRUE!


With great wisdom,i will be able to embrace all the good things in life!A to Z!

Showtime!

There are some nice movie that I'd watched lately...thought of sharing here...It's real nice and worth your time and price of paying for it.

Watched with Sheany at Gurney during my holiday.That time was boring and we purposely drove to Penang to watch movie.While glancing all the movies that are release there,i thought that there will be no any nice movie...then Sheany suggested to watch .Luckily it didn't disappoit me..or else,i gotta put the blame on Sheany dy..hehe..kidding laa..lol.
Something happened that day...A nerdy formal-wear 'uncle' followed us at our back when we going to enter the cinema..and the 'uncle' sat beside me once i took my seat...where got so 'ngam' 1??!Argh!!!I really cannot 'tahan' him lorh...his coughing, the smell of salted fish comes from his place ( maybe due to his Hong Kong leg ) and some weird hamsap body language...eww~really irritate me!neither do Sheany!So,we decided to shift to other seat ( luckily,still got some empty seat )...and that NERD laugh loudly tho i don't think there's any real goofy scene.haih~~NERD!NERD!NERD! scarrrrrrryyyyyyy~

JUMPER:
Hayden Christensen stars as David Rice-a jumper that can teleport to anywhere that he likes.After running away from home,he learns to use his power to rob banks.Later after that,he's being haunted by Paladin that wants to kill jumpers...

my rate : ***

it's kind of entertaining action movie...not boring,i can say.In fact,a little trilling that excite me.not bad,duh~


Past weekend,Phoebe suddenly called at noon while i still asleep due to my tiredness of having pillow talks with my hostel friends till morning a night before.She called for a gathering as there'd been a long time that we didn't see Josie dy...So,we plan to have dinner together then watch movie after dine.Thought things will goes well and we will have a happy gathering after all...But hor,mana tau...Josie kena food poisoning at the very minutes...sigh~So,she didn't join us for our steamboat buffet and movie...pity her...

STEP UP 2-THE STREETS
Rebellious street dancer,Andie find herself fighting to fit in at the elite maryland School of the Art while also trying to hold onto her old life.Chase-the school hottest dancer,admire Andie's talent in dancing.They form a crew to compete in Baltimore's underground dance battle The Streets....

my rate : ****

This drama musical movie really makes me feel lively after watching it.Great dance move,lovable street boys,nice body and i had great pleasure.C o o l !

Last night,Phoebe invited me and Sheany for a preview of Singaporean movie...Her bro-in-law got 4 free tickets...so,she ask us along lorh...so nice of her...(huggies)..hehe ^^
We watched at Pavillion.At first we thought,cheh~Sg movie niah maa.....but the number of times the audience laughed showed that Jack Neo is very successful in directing the movie. I think Singapore film industrial should feel lucky to have him to raise up the industry.

Ah Long PTE LTD
Mark Lee was coerced to married with the loan-shark triad leader(Fann Wong casting).Mark Lee's sissy character in the movie really really funny till i cannot tahan to laugh aloud(paiseh~my ladylike image is spoilted dy..aiks//).By the way,i just get to know that 'Ah Loong' can be that creative with the various way of giving pressure to the money-lender to repay.Mark Lee's sissy body language and conversation did impressed me and enlightened me a lot!!it's so so so f u n n y !

my rate: ****

surprisingly surprise that i love this movie!


*p/s: i can't get the poster pic for dis movie yet.will upload it once i found it.

害怕

莫名的恐惧感再次把我包围。。。我无法逃,无处可逃。。。
最近，我又发现了一些不寻常的现象。。。
我害怕。。。很害怕验证出来的结果。。。
害怕无法完成那些梦想。。。害怕没有未来。。。
害怕再也无法看见那些亲近的熟悉脸孔。。。

人生只活一回，生命不能够有take two。。。
虽然日子依旧平凡的过但我不懂我还可以有多少些这么的日子。。。所以我真的很珍惜现在的每一天。。。
回忆一直在我脑海中倒退。。。童年，少年，现在的成年。。。
谢谢那些陪我走过这些年的家人，朋友和小熊。。。
你们为我做的每一件小事我都会记得。。。会是属于我最重要的小事。。。


突然，今晚，我格外的想家。。。
很想见到爸爸，妈妈，弟妹。。。

日日夜夜陪伴我的小熊受伤了。。。
今天发现到他的右腿破了一个洞。。。我的心也破了一个洞。。。
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靠在你的肩总能让我感到安心~
有你真好~~








人，是否会因害怕失去而失去的呢？！

忙。茫

忙~忙~忙。。。茫，我也很茫。。。
新年将至，我一点都没有喜气的心情。。。
只感觉很忙，也很茫然。。。
那些这些，另我感觉很累。。。
我好累。。。伪装自己，不说话，做个布娃娃。。。永远只会点头，从来学不会说NO的。。。布娃娃也会累，也会有出走的一天。。。
什么时候，我才可以撤底地离开？
我要走得远远的。。。离开或许会是我唯一的解脱。。。
反正我一点都不重要。。。我只是个布娃娃。。。可却是连摆设价值都没有的布娃娃。。。
昨天，真搞不懂是什么怪日子。。。
一大堆几百年前消失的人无端端跑过来跟我说些奇怪的话。。。
而我当时最想听到的话是千里之处的一把声音。。。
唉~这一口气有如千斤重。。。
我在你心中有如皮毛轻。。。
心淡了。。。。。。
我是不是应该解决那些盲点。。。往另一个方向走？

忙~茫~盲~

The missing 'inspiration' during my missing period~

Been quite a time that i didn't update my blogs here.feel like writing all the time...but sigh~i need to save for the internet balance...my inspiration gone dy laa...

Finally...i finished my 2cd sem and done with my exam...
Don't know why...i didn't feel happy at all or unwaitingly wanna know the result that to be announced...perhaps,i didn't put my best footforward in the exam this time.Feel sucks actually.
and i'd been not feeling well when sat for Webpage Design paper and Writing for Mass Comm paper.the room is damn cold and my stomach is aching like hell during the exam.haih~

Don't know how the grades will be like...didn't dare to expect too high this time.afraid of disappointment...i can just pray that hopefully the result won't make me faint.i just hope that it won't be too sucks till i have to face the music from my parents...don't wanna make them feel that i'm a failure...just want them to be proud to have me as their daughter.i want and i can!

Started my holiday now...i have 3 weeks holidays...except Chinese New Year,wondering what should i do within this period...Don't really like to stay at home for too long.It's freaking boring and it makes me become more dumb laa...perhaps,i should come up with some holiday plan...hehe ^^
practising my belly dancing back again?go for a vacation?learn cooking?

i really really wish to go for a vacation...never feel so relax and have transquil feeling for a long long time already...i know that it sound silly for a student to have such claim.but please laa,student also experience pressure...and there're too many things running in my mind lately...i'm just too tired to think of those sort of things and i need to rest my mind.i found myself upset when i'm alone lately...loneliness is not the things that i'm afraid of...
i need assurance.i need security.i need you.more than you can tell...it's as simple things that as i need.

My old buddies used to comment that why i never try something new regarding with my image that never change since 10 years ago.LOL...and because that i feel like it's really time for me to try something different since i'm still young...so,guess what??i perm my hair!i make it curly from the top to the bottom...used to miss my straight hair that is easily manage and can comb every moment whenever i like...and some people did comment that my curly hair look aunty like at first...bit upset about that...but now,no more...i start to love it!and spend some time to figure out how to make it look nicer...hehe =p



say bye bye to my natural straight hair...
believe it anot,i never do a 'thing' on my hair before..never go for rebonding or treatment...i love the good condition of hair that i own..and that's the reason of make me ponder whether or not to curl it. ^^









Did i look different,completely?180 degree?? =p
Accept it or not,this is my new hair style.
I need to learn to accept it.love it.and manage it...hehe~

anyway,i really started to love it now!









No Expectation;No Disappointment.

B E 'L I E' V E

aiks// i'm going through my emotion again,at this very moment.

Wake up in the morning,stumble on my life...
Can't get no love without sacrifice.
If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong,I can get to my sleep.
I can think that we just carried on.
I feel as if i'm wastin...

i made believe.for all these while,i'm trying hard to believe.
and now,i just realise that B E 'L I E' V E ...there's 'L I E' inside the B E L I E V E.

You would never ask me why my heart is so disguised?!
Senses never lie.I read from your sense of touch.
But you never get me when we get close.never read me from my touch.
This is the way that we love?No Hope, No Love, No Glory??
How the ending will be?will it be the happy ending that exclude me or our happy ending?

I feel...little bit of heaven;little bit of hell.
I just need little bit of love...little bit of love...little bit of belongings.
but end up that I realise that I never been belongs;never been loved,truly...whole-heartedly...


If you love something,set it free.If it comes back,it's yours.If it never,it never was.