Sara

I am officially 21!
I don't know what kind of adulthood life that I am going to live through...It's yet to be explore ...
and this song linger in my mind very often lately...

[ Sara ]
When I was just a little girl,
I asked my mother,what will I be?
Will I be pretty?Will I be rich?
That's what she said to me:
"Hey Sara,Sara...Whatever will be...will be...
The future not our's to see...Hey Sara,Sara...What will be...Will be..."

The journey is yet to begins... and
I am searching for the light to shine along the way...
Wish me luck ^^

恋空3-我和天空谈恋爱

我一直都在和天空谈恋爱。。。


以下是我部份影摄的恋空照。。。
张张的恋空照演绎出不同时段的我，带着不同的心情。。。

[巴士沿途中，青青的稻草。。。我知道离家不远了。。。]

[槟岛-在婆婆家附近,看着天和海连成一条线。。。婆婆，你都还好吗？]

[ferry上，那时风刮得很大。。。等待着靠岸-一个安全的，温暖的避风港]

[外婆店外的天空-外婆，我突然很想你。。。你做的饭，烧的菜，包的汤是天下最最最美味的。]

[和Nellie在kepong跑步时照的-太阳快下山咯！]

[ MC 晓吉力以前的房外- 有时候，我们会倚靠在那，看天空，数车龙，还有一起说梦。。。]

[赶assignment整夜不睡觉-天刚要破晓。。。月亮再见咯~太阳快升起吧！又是全新的一天了！]

[曾经在Melati家的天台外，月光的作祟下，展发出一段两个人的故事。。。]

[但是很快的，同一年，我宣告失恋了。。。在hometown,从二楼窗外望出去，泪还在滴。。。可晚霞还是那么的美。。。我说过我会好好过。。。]

[Sibu,Rejang江那儿的天空。。。天空底下的我，正想对你诉说suki desu。。。]

[孙燕姿-风筝。看着风筝穿越云端，飞得很高。。我知道天空多美妙。。。我在微笑，把梦想找到。。]

嘻嘻~~有一些不是很清。。。没法啦。。。只不过是本人用k750i 2.0 mega pixel 手机拍的。。。

所以，我真的很想拥有一部专业的相机，学摄影。。。
最近流行的 lomography 相机也很不错。。。可以玩视觉效果。。。
存着钱。。。我要将它变成囊中物!



天空在等着我吗？

恋空 2

从恋空1开始，每一天，我总会习惯性的把头抬；看天空。。。

一个人在房里独处的时候，我会倚望窗外的天空。。

心情低落得要命的时候，只要踏出去看看天空，就会很自然的笑了。。。就会好多了。。。

荡秋千时，我会把头倒后看天空。。。

天空，颠倒来看时，我会发现地面上的地平线足以平衡我心里的平衡线。。。

和同事吃夜宵等食物端上的当儿，我也会举头望明月。。。

月光，隐隐闪耀。。。像在叫我别害怕。。。我不是孤单一个人的。。。

想家的时候，我也会看天空；然后凭想象，在云里拟出家人的容貌。。。

真希望云可以当我最好的邮差，把我对他们的想念快递给他们。。。

夜深人静的时候，我更习惯性地会看天空，向星星喃喃心语。。。

飞机划过天际的时候，我也会盯着天空看，至到它飞得太远，我看不见了为此。。。

婆婆家就在槟城机场附近，在那而，有我的秘密基地。。。

小时候，我会抬头好奇地指着天空上的一条直线问：为什么天空上会有一条线的呢？

长大了问，就会被人骂：那就不过是飞机线嘛。。。笨！

不过，我还是想要有点童真地问。。。嘻嘻~

当我受挫，想放弃的时候，望着天空上漂浮着的云朵里似乎预言着生命中变幻莫澈的命运。。。

云说：生命中有无限的可能。。。我和你，我们都有绝对的能量可以创造出自己的一片天！

所以，不可以放弃！只要永不，永不放弃，就会有成功的机会！

[守得云开见明月] = ）

The sky's the limit!

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Clock keeps ticking like it's laughing at me; why waste tomorrow chasing yesterday...
Days go by in a pulseless haze...
I wonder what spell I'm under; who's that person wearing my face??
I part my lips to speak but the words are out to reach...

It ain't easy...
I'm half alive but i felt mostly dead...

Okay,fine...
I just shouldn't think anymore...not much time for me to waste...

It's a brand new day again...
Ohaiyo [ goodmorning ] !

P/s: please tell me to GAMBATAE neh~
and i will gambatae...

GAMBATAE neh,Xinyi!

如果你也想起我。。。

睡不着。。。
悬着一颗心没着落。。。
房间里没有亮灯。。。
把自己关在夜一般黑的思绪里。。。
冰封许久的回忆随着音乐的鼓舞让我突然觉察到原来那恋的甜，离我已多么地遥远。。。

近来，生活忙碌得好压力。。。
每天，除了上课，打工，我近乎没有多余的时间给自己。。。
睡觉，是我的奢侈品。。。
我也不容自己想太多。。。
可是，就是会有这样一个的夜晚，我越界了。。。

会不会有这样一个的夜晚，你也会突然想起我？
如果你想起了我，你又会想到了什么？

0707116 最小的事

晓吉力~


这一刻，最重要的事，是属于你，最小的事。。。

我们每个平凡小事，变成永恒故事。。。

你就是我的天使。。。

你就像天使一样，给我依赖，给我力量。。。

如果能有一天，再一次重返光荣。。。

记得找我，我的好朋友。。。

伙伴们，好不好？让我们再次拯救地球。。。

老地方相见。。。

如果你发现你还有留恋。。。

MC-KFC的篱芭外，我们肩屏着肩，紧握的手里面有好多明天。。。

认识你五月的天，梦开始鲜艳。。。

一长串的心愿，我们一天一天，慢慢实现。。。

我们甩掉地球，地球甩掉。。。只要越跳越高。。。

只想越跳越疯，越跳越高，把地球甩掉。。。

come on,JumP!

请你把头抬起来，帮你把勇气装满。。。

有你我的陪伴，一起终结孤单。。。

那样的回忆，那么足够。。。

谢谢你，教懂我知足的快乐。。。

JuMp!让我们一起私奔到月球。。。

让我们一起离开地球表面。。。To Find Our Paradise。。。

我们会有一起跃过城墙的一天！

最小的事；最重要的事

[你，07年的生日。。。我们的猪样~哈哈！]

[829，眼镜军团成员之一 - Evelyn，在redbox的庆生会上。。。]

[Wilson's CS 的lecture。。。我们的棒棒圈-Lollipop。。。]

[PD的那道墙，我们的屁股。。。Lol ;p] [Transformer 后的Kenny Roger's 大餐-Tongue Out!]

[眼镜军团大姐-嘉怡，在槟城Batu Ferringhi 沙滩的生日party。。。]

[我们都说好，会一起越过城墙的。。。就在不久的将来！我相信。。。]

[共享的士林开心套餐。。。]

[08年，527。。。祝你生日快乐！]

人间

4点多了。。。

如果你，和我一样寂寞。。。一样在感叹人生。。。

来吧！为我们更深一层的寂寞，干杯！

送你一首歌。。。

我的第一个偶像，第一个让我最想拥有她的专辑的人-王菲。


《人间》
风雨过后不一定有美好的天空
不是天晴就会有彩虹
所以你一脸无辜 不代表你懵懂
不是所有感情都会有始有终
孤独尽头不一定惶恐
可生命总免不了 最初的一阵痛
但愿你的眼睛 只看得到笑容
但愿你流下每一滴泪 都让人感动
但愿你以后每一个梦 不会一场空
天上人间 如果真值得歌颂
也是因为有你在 才会变得闹哄哄
天大地大 世界比你想象中朦胧
我不忍心再欺哄 但愿你听得懂
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 x 2
但愿你会懂 该何去何从

p/s: 该睡觉了啦，晚安~

笑吧! =)

凌晨3点钟。。。

今夜，我觉得既寂寞，也既不寂寞。。。很矛盾吧？！lol ;p

寂寞，因为近期有太多事情需要处理了。。而我，很逊的。。。处理不好。。

不寂寞了，因为身边有同样寂寞的人们陪我一起寂寞。。。


最近，真的很累。。。

好想松懈一下下啊~！


人生几何？

再累，都要笑一笑嘛。。。

笑一笑，没烦恼。。。

而且，我发现这一招很管用噢！因为当我脸带笑容地对人笑时，他们紧锁着的眉头也会展开，然后回我一个笑容。。。

这样，我就开心了。。。

笑吧~！

七彩。彩虹

七彩。。。缤纷的七彩，被我给遗忘了还是它弄丢我了？

突然想起，[Seeing Rainbow in Thunderstorm] 这名字。。。

这不就是意味着在狂风暴雨后，方才会有绚丽的彩虹吗？七彩的彩虹。。。

我的人生调色盘，是时候加点颜色了！

我会为我自己彩色！

红~橙~黄~绿~蓝~靛~紫 , 都跟上了吗？可别把我给弄丢了呀！

the black friday

黑色星期五- BLaCk FridaY

Today is really really not my day...Since i woke up,luck had gone its way...

From taxi incidentsss ( i was being cheated and fooled by taxi driver 3 times a day ler and each time is different races of driver-malay-indian-chinese ) SIAO~~ == Each time also make me need to pay eXtra ler....really felt like wasting and damn frus larh~

went for movie also need to pay eXtra...Sigh~

really spoilt my mood larh...din even have mood to shop also dy...

By the way,watch KungFu Panda with Ah Ai at MV juznow...

It's quite a comedy that can slightly support me some pills of laughing...

and later on,attend Mr Liew's tutorial...His tutorial is always short but i love his quotes...he always have good quotes and teach good lessons of life...and he awake me with some of the quotations...

Class end earlier and i had fun with Ah Ai to take over the whole classroom...lol

We had some 'chi xin' photo shooting sessions...and the outcomes of those pics are really really lame and funny....but frankly,it works to lighten up my day!

Mr Liew's quote of the day : "Never look back!Never!Whatever over is over!"

KungFu Panda's quotations : "There's no secret ingredients.There's nothing.It's just YOU!

You just have to BELIEVE! You must BELIEVE. as long as YOU

BELIEVE!!!"

YOU can make yourself special.If you believe you do!

Attach are some of the 'chi xin' pics...Enjoy...Have a laugh =)

[The Guru]
[she finally qualify me as The Master....hohoho xp]

[Prof Ai presenting Shadow's of the Dragon Warrior]

["Abu neh?"]

[You drive me crazzzzzzzzzzzzy!Argh!!]

[Ah Ai said our pose like the poster of the movie "Secret"]

*Lastly,gonna thanks to Ah Ai for cheering me up and so kind of her to edit those pics for me....

I still prefer to call you Ah Ai laa...Ching Ai de.... XD

stresssssss VS wantssssss

STRESS!!!
STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

i am so stressed!
i just wish that i am able to done well in everything i did...tho i realise that it's quite impossible...
i just wish that i can have time for everyone...
i just wish to live more lively...
i just wish to have smiley to put on everyday...
the wish list goes on and on ~~~~~~~~

that i just wish to be good...
that i will be .... good~
That i want it ALL!!!

I Want What I Want!!!

Thank you,angels of mine =)

Thank you,my dear angels!
Thank you for being there to raise me up and be there for me when i'm in need...

I was sick few days ago...
At first,i thought that 1 litre of 100Plus should be enough to cure and reduce the heat...Manatau,it's getting worse the next day...
I was in semi-conscious while on the way walking back to the apartment from lrt station...
And,i faint!i mean,almost laa...My vision starts to get blurr and i fell down...
Felt so helpless at that moment....but i tried to tell myself to stand up and move on,at least,safe to get back home!
Shameful to say,i cried when rang the phone to JC while he's working...
After examined by dr,said dr...I'm really critical...My body temperature is 40 degree and i vomit blood and yet i go to uni....he asked am i crazy?!
JC warned me not to go to uni the next day and i just lying on the bed like dead body for about 16 hours...

Anyway,
Thanks,Jia Yi...for answering my calls,console me...calm me down...
Thanks JC for bring me to see doctor and take good care of me...
Thanks Kallen for being so so caring to change wet towel for me to reduce my heat during night time....
Thanks 'Whisky' for being a good pharmist..lol...ex-pharmacy student..okay,thanks for ur advise...
Thanks Phoebe for being concern about me.Although u can't come from that far,but i know that you are sincerely care for me...
Thanks Iris,for being so sweet to cheer me up when i was alone loitering around at KLCC due to heavy rain out there...ur sms is sweet enough and it popped up at the very right time to cheer me up...
Thanks Jiez for lending me your helping hand and be my 'kuli' for 1 night to help me move my things back...hehe
Thanks Ah Ai for introducing yourself to me and hope my life in Help won't be boring with your appearance there...
Thanks Jian Xin for your attemp in helping me to look around for room...
Thanks 5th aunty for being concern about my condition here...
Thanks Josie and Sheany for being such a good friends of mine...
Thanks Xiao Zhen for being concern...
Thanks Phan for your offer and being helpful...
Thanks Andrew for your silly joke...hehe
Million million thanks to all of you.....

There're once that i felt so hopeless in life and been drowning....
Luckily,angels light up my way...
YOU are my ANGELS!
Love you guys ^^

Vienna

I think i am sick dy...fever,sore throat and vomit this morning...
Anyway,it is 1st of June...should be a good month...
Found myself a good song...


Billy Joel- [Vienna]

[Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be before your time
althought it's so romantic on the borderline tonight

Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right

You got your passion,you got your pride
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true

When will you realize
Vienna waits for you ]

[维也纳会永远等着你]
我想维也纳可能代表每个人心中的一个理想。
只要你有心，只要你还在努力，你的理想就会永远等着你。

[Vienna waits for me]

news...but bad news

Somebody is stepping my luck!!!
It's sucks!
It's sh!t !!!

Received lots of bad news...and bad things keep on happening on me...
I tried hard to be optimistic but each day i wake up,the condition is getting worst!
It's been 3 months i didn't have period!
Pregnancy thingy is not the thing that i need to worry about coz i'm not involve in any sex relationship BUT my skin is getting worst due to this problem...Dr's medic cannot work,productssss cannot work,hormone cannot work..
Oh Gosh!I'm so so abnormal...

Why har??suddenly seems like things change to become worst le?
Somemore,i cannot rent the room that i wish dy coz it's being rent out to other people dy...
So,means that after 10June,i got no place to stay...
Staying with my cousin at Cheras now is already a BIG problem for me to go to uni everyday and i felt guilty to disturb him for that long too...
i need a place to settle down..tired of shifting here and there...

and besides,i really miss those good old days where i used to have when i was in UTAR with that bunch of piggie doggie friends...
miss those moments that i used to have...
don't think that i will have that kind of life in Help...

Woke up this morning,with lots of problems need to be solve and other stupid stuff spinning in my head,suddenly...feel like giving up in life!
I don't wish to continue my life like this...like now...it's completely unacceptable...and it's really SUCKS!
feel like commit suicide...just cross the road and let the car bang on me then done!
i'm done and gone!

I'm not happy...
I never happy ever since i came back to here...
Don't know how to make myself happy...
My cheer leader is not here...
Everyone is busy with their life,so as a half adult,i know that i should handle all this stuff my own and overcome it...
perhaps,give me sometime...
As Jen said: This is just a beginning...Everything happen for a reason and i happen to be in this world with this sucks situation now is also must be some reason behind...
So,i still need to keep it up and learn to be tough...take it as a trainning programme lor...
Someday,Sometime,Somewhere...i will know..
and it should be a very good reason to explain my WH questions...
better be something that worth my waiting!


No news is good news = )

seeking H A P P I N E S S

Another day had gone and passed away...
I feel not right...
I feel down...
I feel abnormal....
I feel strange...

I don't know why do I feel that way....
I am depressed!
I lost my way and lost of directions...lost of confidence to go on...
Suddenly,i feel a failure of life...

It's my first day attend classes at HUC...
It's a completely new environment,new faces to me....
Half way to my dreams getting closer and nearer but to be honest,i didn't feel happy...
I don't feel that i like this place...but there's no turning back for me....
I need to go on,and i know that,realistically!
Didn't eat anythg since i wake up till end of class at 2pm....
and while i was waiting for bus to go back,it started to rain,HEAVILY....DAMN!
Since i didn't have umbrella,i cannot walk back to the place i stay ritenow as i used to walk abt 10 mins from lrt to my 'home'...
So,I need to get a place to go...

So,I go to KLCC alone...
Walking alone in the crowds,with no destination,I feel EMPTY.LONELY.WEIRD.
I don't know what to do or what should i do...
Perhaps,i can call someone for date...blind date or whatsoever... but it's really pointless to date with someone that is not my favour...It won't help any to make me feel any better or happier...
I don't want to waste ur time...I don't want to give any false hope to anyone of you and then end up hurting you and myself....
I am tired of the so called 'love game' or 'trap' of desperado...
I am depressed,lonely and need love BUT I AM NOT DESPERATE!
Sick with desperado and guys with 'come and go' hurting me...
Perhaps,i am really a bloody idiot to make believe that true love does exist and they are sincere.
It's all just an illusion...and when the picture gets clearer,it's time to AWAKE!
Naive in love is my weakness and it's time to WAKE UP and be REALISTIC!
I don't even want to spend any wasted second with people that are not my favor.
So,if i ignored u,u better b smart a bit...STAY AWAY FROM ME!

My family went to travel overseas dy and i am really alone here.
I need their support...I need to talk and share with them everything here with me...
I need them to shower me with love and tell me that everything gonna be alright and i can do it fine...
I miss them badly...
No matter what happen,their love that shower me is EVERLASTING and will not change...and i realise it,each day i grown older...
Dad and Mum and my adorable siblings,they mean the world to me...

Gladful to say,i owned some good friends...
My friends might not be many,but they are all really good friends...
Luckily i met them and are friends with them...
Everything that they did for me really touch my heart and thousand words of 'thank you' is not going to be enough to dedicate to them for their helping hand whenever i was in need.

Every Failure brings a step closer to Success~
Fitness First coach said: When I am sad,I work harder!
So,Xinyi...work harder!!
I shall see the light of happiness is waving hand welcoming me in this near future = )

recent updates

又过了一个周末了。。。唉~我还在懊脑着该去哪，怎样才会做到最好。。。很烦哩！

但想想，比起那些可怜的四川灾民还在为了生存而挣扎，自觉自己幸运也幸福许多。。。
我确实应该感到庆幸。。。那一些小小考验算什么？！没什么，熬一熬，咬紧牙关，跟自己说，都会过去的！

我家这一区的电话线被贼偷了。。。不能上网。。。害我瞎无聊的。。。
原想翻阅九把刀的《月老》的，却被妈给叫去干活了。。。
妈叫我去煮绿豆糖水要拿去慈济仪卖，积点功德。。。
换作是以前的我，或许我还想懒散，堵多推塘。。。但今天我没有。。。
近来，想了很多。。。很多人都跟我说我妈很疼我，甚至友人羡慕我妈可以对我做到有求必应。。。
哈~没有那么夸张啦！“有求必应”？？？那不就比拜神还灵？？
但是，说实在的，妈真的很疼我。。。我是知道的。。。
她为我付出了那么多，我不该再对她小小要求而埋怨。。。况且，她只不过是真心地为我好。。。
所以呢，可以做到的，我都会尽责。。。
假期以来，每天都会陪妈去做晨跑。。。今天周末，那就帮她洗地板吧！
洗了（42 x 90）方尺的地板，一个字，爽！洗地板期间，亦忆起了童年时和心怡一起洗澡时用肥皂泡来滑她家洗澡间的地板。。。回想起来，小时候的我们真的很好笑。。。哈~ （Y雨，你该不会怪我写在这里吧？！）
体会到妈妈的伟大。怀胎九个月不好过，扶养孩子成人更不容易。。。
所以,虽然母亲节过了，还是很想说：

妈，母亲节快乐！
愿天下所有的母亲都可以健康快乐！

结束了。

坐在这角落，心里很多话想说。。。
爱不在，应该让自己从回忆中离开。。。
爱不在，我们都已不存在在彼此的未来。。。
有时候，不管对爱还有多少的依赖，就算再不愿意再伤心，我明白我们只能分手。。。
不舍得放手，是我的错。。。
选择掉进这无底洞的人是我自己，是我的错。。。
任由自己的眼睛见证那残酷的事实，是我的错。。。
相信你，也是我的错了吗？？？
我的天真，是我的错。。。

和你分手后，我的心就好像放了一颗炸弹，炸了一个大洞。。。
然后你又出现，害我的伤口又再次斯裂了，让我痛得无法意识这只是一段感觉，已经不是爱了。。。
所以，从现在开始，我们感情归零。。。
我真的再也没有多余的心力去爱或恨你了。。。

此刻，聆听着罗忆诗的《别再哭了》。。。

结束了，就不该再拉扯。。。
结束了，我该往前走，去拥抱那属于我的天空。。。
有一天，我将拥有一双燃烧着火焰的美丽翅膀，在天空傲翔。。。

0707196 献 眼镜军团

眼镜军团六人行

那晚，我们都和烟火一样，笑得很灿烂。。。
我们的笑容可以拯救彼此的失落。。。
旦愿那一刻可以永恒。。。

此刻，我在聆听着《仨人》。。。
我们相识的时间并不长，但喜怒哀乐尽尝。。。
因为有你，染上新的幽默。。。
也因为有你，世界变得轻松。。。
我们属于非常难得。。。

朋友，谢谢你们这些日子以来带给我最真挚的感动。。。
我们共同拥有过的回忆会陪伴着我一生。。。


离别前的最后一张合照。。。

回到家，一个人，打着短讯给在回KL路途中的朋友。。。

打着打着，泪就流了。。。

了解人有悲欢离合，但我还是会不舍。。。真的很不舍。。。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

晓吉力说她坚信这不是最后，所以泪不可以流。。。

Evelyn说：我们不是解散，只是暂时分散。。。

有一天，我们一定会再相聚。。。

细细回味一起度过的那些日子，我们都笑了。。。

这一次，一定会比烟火来得更灿烂。。。

别了，0707196。。。

悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来;

我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。（徐志摩）

但我不是徐志摩。。。

the rain

It's raining now...raindrops~ lotsa raindrops~~~
Staring out from my window pane...
listening to Leona Lewis - Yesterday...
Suddenly,all the memories holding me back,again...

I'm not sad.no longer crying...
I can still find strength to keep myself going on...
There will be someone that is destine for me,one day...
I'll be waiting...

P/s : tomorrow need to sit for final ler...need to continue study to score well for my CGPA...
take a shower and i shall continue study dy...ciao~

夜来疯

夜的来袭，抱着熊熊入睡才能感到安心。。。

对你的眷恋，也只有一个人的时候才会层现。。。也只能够把熊熊抱得更紧。。。

当你觉得我冷漠的时候，你会否明白那是因为我还在乎？

承认我是弱者，不敢再对爱假设。。。

带着一颗平常心，不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛。。。

不想当 Miss D ( Desperado ) 。。。不想随便牵起一只手然后又分手。。。

太容易得到手了的爱，会比较不懂得珍惜吧？！

不会再问为什么。。。我知道我只能一直往前走。。。

熊熊会一直陪着我。。。