在家的心情写照

城市里，花花世界的灯火虽然诱人；但我一个人，是寂寞的。。。
回到家里，我有家人。。。我，不是一个人。。。

在家里，弟妹们嬉戏的欢笑声，爸爸深沉的教诲声，就连妈妈的唠叨声。。。都会温暖我心房。。。
这几天，我很努力地当个好女儿，好姐姐。。。
我想成为你们的骄傲。。。
我想要你们开心因为有我的存在。。。

妈，对不起。。。请你多忍耐一下下。。。请你再给我多一点点时间。。。请你一定要相信我。。。
我在学习中。。。在成长中。。。在改善中。。。
人生还未到尽头，一切判断未免有点太早了吧？！
留得青山在，不怕没柴烧。
所以，不要放弃！
时间可以为我证明。。。我可以！！


GiVe me OnE MoMenT in TimE,When I'm mOrE thAn I thOuGht I cOuLD Be~

Like Flowers,though I may not be as great as early bloomers,but I will definitely BLOOM one day!

My Whim and Fancy

Thought of going to Matta fair and get a haircut with Phoebe yesterday...but just end up with shopping only...again,shopping!

I hardly fall with any stuff with LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT...but i did today!for a BCBG watch!!
i wore my Swatch for years dy...and it's still in good condition...that's why i did not plan to look for any new watch...About 2 years ago,i like a Fossil watch but yet,i didn't go for it because my lust for it is not strong enough...but today,the BCBG really make me feel irressitible to own it.

~My Lust.My Desire.My Want~

My future desire for watch gonna be Longines.But i can't afford to own it rightnow yet.Besides,wearing a Longines at this age like me will be a bit too mature dy.hehe ^^

I never stop thinking about owning it,but yet i am not willing to go for it.It's Christian Dior-Dior Addict 2 perfume!It's just an EDT fragrance but it's so damn expensive!The price make me say no-no to it but i'm really craving for the scent!!

The Scent that I will never forget :

~The Radiance.The Tenderness.The Sensuality~

Another future desire of fragrance gonna be Chanel-Chance!
Besides,i'm also aiming for a Gucci handbag...Perhaps,u gonna spell me S-P-O-I-L-T!
Whatsoever,it's all just my Whim and Fancy.
I'm going to take the job to work at PC fair and maybe some other part time job in future to satisfied all my wants because I WANT WHAT I WANT!


Since I'm turning to 21 this year,I am more assure about what i want for my future.

A for A grade types of life!

F for Family and Friends!

G for Glitters!

H for Health!

L for Lush and Love!

Q for Quality!

S for Smiley = )

W for Wisdom!

Z for Zest!

and i'm going to make my DREAM COME TRUE!


With great wisdom,i will be able to embrace all the good things in life!A to Z!

Showtime!

There are some nice movie that I'd watched lately...thought of sharing here...It's real nice and worth your time and price of paying for it.

Watched with Sheany at Gurney during my holiday.That time was boring and we purposely drove to Penang to watch movie.While glancing all the movies that are release there,i thought that there will be no any nice movie...then Sheany suggested to watch .Luckily it didn't disappoit me..or else,i gotta put the blame on Sheany dy..hehe..kidding laa..lol.
Something happened that day...A nerdy formal-wear 'uncle' followed us at our back when we going to enter the cinema..and the 'uncle' sat beside me once i took my seat...where got so 'ngam' 1??!Argh!!!I really cannot 'tahan' him lorh...his coughing, the smell of salted fish comes from his place ( maybe due to his Hong Kong leg ) and some weird hamsap body language...eww~really irritate me!neither do Sheany!So,we decided to shift to other seat ( luckily,still got some empty seat )...and that NERD laugh loudly tho i don't think there's any real goofy scene.haih~~NERD!NERD!NERD! scarrrrrrryyyyyyy~

JUMPER:
Hayden Christensen stars as David Rice-a jumper that can teleport to anywhere that he likes.After running away from home,he learns to use his power to rob banks.Later after that,he's being haunted by Paladin that wants to kill jumpers...

my rate : ***

it's kind of entertaining action movie...not boring,i can say.In fact,a little trilling that excite me.not bad,duh~


Past weekend,Phoebe suddenly called at noon while i still asleep due to my tiredness of having pillow talks with my hostel friends till morning a night before.She called for a gathering as there'd been a long time that we didn't see Josie dy...So,we plan to have dinner together then watch movie after dine.Thought things will goes well and we will have a happy gathering after all...But hor,mana tau...Josie kena food poisoning at the very minutes...sigh~So,she didn't join us for our steamboat buffet and movie...pity her...

STEP UP 2-THE STREETS
Rebellious street dancer,Andie find herself fighting to fit in at the elite maryland School of the Art while also trying to hold onto her old life.Chase-the school hottest dancer,admire Andie's talent in dancing.They form a crew to compete in Baltimore's underground dance battle The Streets....

my rate : ****

This drama musical movie really makes me feel lively after watching it.Great dance move,lovable street boys,nice body and i had great pleasure.C o o l !

Last night,Phoebe invited me and Sheany for a preview of Singaporean movie...Her bro-in-law got 4 free tickets...so,she ask us along lorh...so nice of her...(huggies)..hehe ^^
We watched at Pavillion.At first we thought,cheh~Sg movie niah maa.....but the number of times the audience laughed showed that Jack Neo is very successful in directing the movie. I think Singapore film industrial should feel lucky to have him to raise up the industry.

Ah Long PTE LTD
Mark Lee was coerced to married with the loan-shark triad leader(Fann Wong casting).Mark Lee's sissy character in the movie really really funny till i cannot tahan to laugh aloud(paiseh~my ladylike image is spoilted dy..aiks//).By the way,i just get to know that 'Ah Loong' can be that creative with the various way of giving pressure to the money-lender to repay.Mark Lee's sissy body language and conversation did impressed me and enlightened me a lot!!it's so so so f u n n y !

my rate: ****

surprisingly surprise that i love this movie!


*p/s: i can't get the poster pic for dis movie yet.will upload it once i found it.

害怕

莫名的恐惧感再次把我包围。。。我无法逃,无处可逃。。。
最近，我又发现了一些不寻常的现象。。。
我害怕。。。很害怕验证出来的结果。。。
害怕无法完成那些梦想。。。害怕没有未来。。。
害怕再也无法看见那些亲近的熟悉脸孔。。。

人生只活一回，生命不能够有take two。。。
虽然日子依旧平凡的过但我不懂我还可以有多少些这么的日子。。。所以我真的很珍惜现在的每一天。。。
回忆一直在我脑海中倒退。。。童年，少年，现在的成年。。。
谢谢那些陪我走过这些年的家人，朋友和小熊。。。
你们为我做的每一件小事我都会记得。。。会是属于我最重要的小事。。。


突然，今晚，我格外的想家。。。
很想见到爸爸，妈妈，弟妹。。。

日日夜夜陪伴我的小熊受伤了。。。
今天发现到他的右腿破了一个洞。。。我的心也破了一个洞。。。
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靠在你的肩总能让我感到安心~
有你真好~~








人，是否会因害怕失去而失去的呢？！

忙。茫

忙~忙~忙。。。茫，我也很茫。。。
新年将至，我一点都没有喜气的心情。。。
只感觉很忙，也很茫然。。。
那些这些，另我感觉很累。。。
我好累。。。伪装自己，不说话，做个布娃娃。。。永远只会点头，从来学不会说NO的。。。布娃娃也会累，也会有出走的一天。。。
什么时候，我才可以撤底地离开？
我要走得远远的。。。离开或许会是我唯一的解脱。。。
反正我一点都不重要。。。我只是个布娃娃。。。可却是连摆设价值都没有的布娃娃。。。
昨天，真搞不懂是什么怪日子。。。
一大堆几百年前消失的人无端端跑过来跟我说些奇怪的话。。。
而我当时最想听到的话是千里之处的一把声音。。。
唉~这一口气有如千斤重。。。
我在你心中有如皮毛轻。。。
心淡了。。。。。。
我是不是应该解决那些盲点。。。往另一个方向走？

忙~茫~盲~

The missing 'inspiration' during my missing period~

Been quite a time that i didn't update my blogs here.feel like writing all the time...but sigh~i need to save for the internet balance...my inspiration gone dy laa...

Finally...i finished my 2cd sem and done with my exam...
Don't know why...i didn't feel happy at all or unwaitingly wanna know the result that to be announced...perhaps,i didn't put my best footforward in the exam this time.Feel sucks actually.
and i'd been not feeling well when sat for Webpage Design paper and Writing for Mass Comm paper.the room is damn cold and my stomach is aching like hell during the exam.haih~

Don't know how the grades will be like...didn't dare to expect too high this time.afraid of disappointment...i can just pray that hopefully the result won't make me faint.i just hope that it won't be too sucks till i have to face the music from my parents...don't wanna make them feel that i'm a failure...just want them to be proud to have me as their daughter.i want and i can!

Started my holiday now...i have 3 weeks holidays...except Chinese New Year,wondering what should i do within this period...Don't really like to stay at home for too long.It's freaking boring and it makes me become more dumb laa...perhaps,i should come up with some holiday plan...hehe ^^
practising my belly dancing back again?go for a vacation?learn cooking?

i really really wish to go for a vacation...never feel so relax and have transquil feeling for a long long time already...i know that it sound silly for a student to have such claim.but please laa,student also experience pressure...and there're too many things running in my mind lately...i'm just too tired to think of those sort of things and i need to rest my mind.i found myself upset when i'm alone lately...loneliness is not the things that i'm afraid of...
i need assurance.i need security.i need you.more than you can tell...it's as simple things that as i need.

My old buddies used to comment that why i never try something new regarding with my image that never change since 10 years ago.LOL...and because that i feel like it's really time for me to try something different since i'm still young...so,guess what??i perm my hair!i make it curly from the top to the bottom...used to miss my straight hair that is easily manage and can comb every moment whenever i like...and some people did comment that my curly hair look aunty like at first...bit upset about that...but now,no more...i start to love it!and spend some time to figure out how to make it look nicer...hehe =p



say bye bye to my natural straight hair...
believe it anot,i never do a 'thing' on my hair before..never go for rebonding or treatment...i love the good condition of hair that i own..and that's the reason of make me ponder whether or not to curl it. ^^









Did i look different,completely?180 degree?? =p
Accept it or not,this is my new hair style.
I need to learn to accept it.love it.and manage it...hehe~

anyway,i really started to love it now!









No Expectation;No Disappointment.

B E 'L I E' V E

aiks// i'm going through my emotion again,at this very moment.

Wake up in the morning,stumble on my life...
Can't get no love without sacrifice.
If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong,I can get to my sleep.
I can think that we just carried on.
I feel as if i'm wastin...

i made believe.for all these while,i'm trying hard to believe.
and now,i just realise that B E 'L I E' V E ...there's 'L I E' inside the B E L I E V E.

You would never ask me why my heart is so disguised?!
Senses never lie.I read from your sense of touch.
But you never get me when we get close.never read me from my touch.
This is the way that we love?No Hope, No Love, No Glory??
How the ending will be?will it be the happy ending that exclude me or our happy ending?

I feel...little bit of heaven;little bit of hell.
I just need little bit of love...little bit of love...little bit of belongings.
but end up that I realise that I never been belongs;never been loved,truly...whole-heartedly...


If you love something,set it free.If it comes back,it's yours.If it never,it never was.

Value of having~

Another cold shivering night to go through for me tonight.
Actually,i was asleep justnow but awake at a sudden and and and...this lead me to write this blog lorh...hahaha =p

Accidentally met Jacinth at Forever 21 last week.It's been a long time never really have a quality chat with her face to face.Kinda miss those moments share with her during childhood times.We used to do lots of things together and some people claimed that we are like chopstick that always attached together and cannot be separated.hehe =p We go to school together,we rushing for tuisyen together,we bath together,we sleep together,we dream together...instead,there's too many to list as we really did lots of things together! = )
Still remember that her mum used to claimed that both of us sharing so many things together,hopefully we won't fall in love with the same guy in the future,or else it will affect our friendship.Aiyoh~won't laa...my taste & her taste is totally different la...somemore, now she already has a stable relationship with a guy dy...hehe =p Jacinth,just to let you know that our friendship will last,no worries.We gonna share stories again even when we grow old...stories about our other half,children & even cucu cicit...haha =p

Been hanging out quite frequent with Phoebe and Sheany lately too.
Phoebe,also my best friend since primary school...Really appreciate and treasure what she did for me,especially this recent 2 years.Phoebe,thanks for your helping hand whenever i'm in need...Really appreciate it heartedly...
*One more things to share...we ( Phoebe & me ) actually braced teeth together when we are 18...hehe=p

Sheany,another best friend of mine since secondary school.Sheany,thanks for those sharing and caring session that we go through...and the song that you sang to me today,i appreciate your effort in comforting me...thanks = )

Devil Peng,pity you laa...have to go for internship...or else,we gonna spend lots of happy hours together dy...hehe =p don't envy us...complete your internship then after that we gonna hang out together again...and thanks for your words of concern all the time...

Iris,though we are separated miles away but you have been keep me warmth with your concern all the time...and for all the 'incident' that we go through,our secret behind the 'pondok'...and that shape a stable friendship of us today... = )

so glad that i own such precious friendships of friends of lifetime.

When i came to UTAR,i'm worried...i wonder whether i will have a bunch of good friends to accompany me to go through the days in UTAR or not.However,luckily...I found them...Jiez,Jiayi,Amanda,Evelyn and JX.They guys are AWESOME!We do lots of incredible stuff in uni.Without them,my uni life must be very boring...We share true friendship...
laughter and tears,we have gone through all these together,even in this short period of time...i'm happy to have you all as friends...

Besides,i'd get to know that there're also a lot of friends who care about me...i'm appreciated & i'm touched...
I'm not Joey All Mighty who always go around to make friends.My friends might be few but they are all friends that i share true friendship with. = )


* the night is cold...the night is dark...however,thinking of friends,it makes me feel a little warmer...

i wish to give you warmth to accompany you to go through this long long night too...
at least,i know that i am meant to you...
if you are facing hard times,don't hesitate to share with me...even heroes have the right to bleed...
if you ever find yourself,lost and all alone...get back on your feet and think of me...i'm here.
see the world through your eyes,see me through your heart.Open your heart to see mine.


Be Appreciative

一个人。有个人

深深的夜，打健盘陪我在这里“虚度”这一夜。。。
不是很哈周杰伦但《我不配》重复地被我点播。。。不懂为什么今天听着jay的歌，跟他一起咬词不清地朗朗上调，格外有feel。。。

刚才，又在学校emo了。。。朋友们都很关心我。。我都知道。。。感激于心。。。
有时候，我需要时间自己去消化一些事情。。所以才会表现得如此emo。。。
不要太担心。。。想通后，我自然OK = )

这世界有太多的不真实。。。太多的伪装。。。我要如何看清？如何分辨？我不懂，教教我。。。我需要你真实的告白。。。
我许的愿望很卑微。。。我只需要真诚。

懂我的人都知道我的心是易碎品。。。
给别人的第一印象，总是冷冷的，甚至有点“串”。。。那只是我自己的保护色。。。
不会随便亲近陌生人，也不会随便送上微笑。。。所以，请原谅我的不亲切。。。

这几天，感觉怪怪的。。。病例如：
曾经被冠为大胃王的我，竟然没有胃口吃东西。。。很想吐。。。肚子又不舒服。。。晕，缺氧。。。心也吊吊的。。。唉？！我现在没有时间生病啦，快要考试了嘞。。。
太多的事情得处理。。。
课本等着我，欢乐等着我，梦想等着我，成就等着我。。。你，也在等着我吗？
我要快点好起来，我要好好过！我要加油！！


有时候我们需要一个人，
有时候我们需要有个人。

Shopping Spree

went for shopping spree with Sheany today,at Midvalley...

planning to buy the shirt that Jen spot at Geb...but hor,when i went to the shop to seek for the shirt,it's already finish sold out!!Argh!!!so damn geram laa...so regret why i didn't buy it that day...haih... = (

That day Jen said: " Aiya,this kind of shirt won't easily sell off de laa...ask jx them all de opinion first.." but what happen now?!other branch at Sunway also ady sold out all liao laa...haih...spoilt my shopping mood...

I miss the shirt badly~I WANT IT!but i won't gonna own it dy...it's sold off!!!too bad =(

This season shirts not really nice and after 'exploring' most of the shop at MV yet we buy nothing...So,we have decided to go to Bangsar to look for our "desire one"...

First time go to Bangsar Village Mall and the boutigue along the bangsar street...

Waw!it's really open up my eyes!Every boutiques there are so so unique with the decor and clothing.People might think that the clothing there must be extremely expensive...but let me tell you...It's not as what you think laa...

The price is affordable,design is unique,quality is very good & some are design by designers,some import from overseas!and one more thing,i found that all the people there are friendly and polite,unlike some salesperson in Sg.Wang who is so insisting want you to buy their cloth only but if you didn't buy,they will show their sour face and when you leave,they won't even say a word "thank you and come again later".haih...different culture..and that's make the difference~

Sevendays shop's owner tell me that i look sexy with this dress wor.She claimed that Angelina Jolie wear like this too ler...=P but i still think that it's like wearing pj laa...so,i din buy it...

Some shops sell only one piece for one design...So,siapa cepat,dia dapat laa...and the most important part is you won't see others wearing the same cloth as yours as it will be your one and only...hehe =P

*Here are recommended few that i had visited: Oopsie Daisie, Mooie, Baci, Sevendays, Sew & Soul, etc...

Sheany bought a dress at Sevendays and i bought 2 tops at Baci for only rm98...satisfy with the bargain = )

Tired with shopping dy,feel thirsty as well...All the restaurant there look so nice laa but the price must be 'nicer'...ahha,we are judging the 'books' by its cover...but seriously,we don't really feel like wanna spent an expensive dinner there laa...So,Sheany suggested that we go for something light.End up with we went to Mango Mania.First time enter the shop,so the salesgirl treat us a free small portion of yogurt mango.SLurPpp~~it's nice!but we try another drink instead of it..We had try out Cube Cube Mango...For mango lovers,sugar free lover,it must be your favourite shop to visit!You shall have your irresistible mango treat in the shop!Have a try!= )

It was a great day shopping at Bangsar.Discover lots of beautiful shops,saw lots of leng luis,lots of pretty cars...but how come arh?i never notice any leng cais?aiks//i must be walking too fast and too excited looking at those pretty clothes & dining restaurant there dy...anyhow,it's never my habit to watch at handsome guy tho...coz 'yau tak tai,mou tak sek'..no use also laa...look for what?cheh~* i'm practical practitioner... =P

Don't JuDge A BooK by its CoVer

烟花

在烟花降落的那一刻，我终于明白了。。。

如果我一直在原地等待，你会否回头找我？我一直等，一直等。。。

如果人生到了尽头，换你一句话，很足够。。。
但纯粹一直像白痴一样地空等待，而你却一直都没有出现。。。我，已经累了。。再也无法找出任何借口去掩饰你的谎言。。。只有一个理由，很显然地，你不爱我。。。

你，如果真的爱我，你不会这样不顾我感受地对待我。。。

该懂的，其实我早就懂。。。我一味地装傻，并不表示你可以任意的伤害我。。。

不会强求，不会再挽留，只因为我要给你最后的温柔。。我会对你说，我给你自由。。。

这一次，请你也让我走吧！不要和我说“再见”，也再也不想见！

2007，永远的2007，感觉跟从前想象的有点差距。。。
烟花，在2008绽放的那一刻，我告别了2007。。也为我们的故事画下句点。。。

烟花，很灿烂。。却也很短暂。。。

可不可以给我永恒的片刻？

我一直都很想去拥抱永恒。。。 。。。

每当我觉得很靠近了，却一次又一次地让我摔跤。。。感觉很受挫。。

我已经不再相信了。。。

没有信心，也不敢奢望。。。

旦愿这一次，我真的懂得学乖吧？！

我不可以再像以前那样的懦弱。。。

新的一年，人生旅程的另一个起点。。。
我要坚强的走下去，去迎接那一些美好的未知数。。。
祝我心想事成吧！

Nothing last forever.
Nothing ends nicely, that’s why it ends…

1st time

My ever first time blogging in Blogspot...
Just here to share things happen around me...
Welcome to my page and thanx for reading my blogs = )

iFeel hAppy and glad that my effort paid off!
After all the suffering and struggling,finally...wOhoO!!!WE MAKE IT!
It worth as it bears fruits!!
Gonna thanks to my group members as they make a great team!
and i'd come to know that i'd push too hard and make things happen to be too tensed up previously...sorry...
but hey,we did it and lay it great at last,right?haha =P
Coke Side of Life,not bad huh?
it was once sucks but recalling it back,i gonna thank it!
So,let's cheers for the glory!Coca-Cola Zero Rulez!!!

Coca-Cola Zero~ ReaL TaSte,ZerO SuGar!
bought at KLCC Isetan,imported from HK...
cost about rm 4++


The Joy of Working is Seeing Rainbow in Thunderstorm