Monday, September 27, 2010
the time bomb! USE THE RIGHT WORDS!!
Friday, March 12, 2010
the decision
I know that it is an opportunity of once-in-a-life-time and almost all the people around me encouraged me to go...
After all, i just do not have enough confidence to prepare myself to undergo the loneliness in the cold there...
*p/s : hopefully i won't regret in the future
Anyhow, i had enrolled a japanese language course at UTAR and hopefully i can make full use of it to benefit my future undergoings. Or perhaps, i can probably go to Japan for half year for an intensive course? Who's know?!
Of all the lovely friends i had here, i just wanted to say thank you all so much for all the cheers and laughter that we shared...
I love all my BFF! -xoxo-
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Goodbye?
and now,all in a sudden..i fall into a situation that i might face long distance separation in a near future...
i'm so reluctant to leave but yet i realised that i have to focus on a big picture instead of a small puzzle...
and now, i am emo-ing alone in Wendy's Jaya One listening to James Blunt's song - Goodbye my lover...
and it inspires me to write this blog......
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
the emo queen's crap
I'm in a state of depression...i think...
Eyes are red,tears are shed..
Felt so hopeless that i can't fix anything...
I don't know what else that i can do to make things get better...
I don't know...
I don't know if i can still believe and keep my faith on my journey...
i don't know...
Happiness...Laughter...smiley...it's all seems far far away..that i can't reach...
Family..friendship..love.... it seems that i cannot afford to gain anything of it...
i hate myself...
[tonight i wanna cry]
well,i know i'm crapping...do ignore my crap...
i'm just another emo out here...
Friday, March 6, 2009
牙关
Saturday, November 22, 2008
moving on with the days
i got no time to shed a tear right this moment anymore...
i have to move on!
Had a discussion with a group member at The Border's Starbucks at The Garden justnow...It takes time to modify others works so,we decide to re-do everything...It will be much easier for us...This might be kind of bit autocratic and sound irrespect to others but we are lack o f time to ask them to re-do and guide them how to do...it's so much tiring...
Since, we are at Starbucks,i get myself a new drink intro for X'mas season...
Instead of my all-time-fav-Java Chips, i get myself Toffee Nut Frapuccino...i love it! = ) and guess you should have love it too!get yourself one ba if you go Starbucks ;p
Besides, i get myself a mini book at Borders...
It brings lights to my dull hectic day!
The formula of happinessS
It's our favourite sushi restaurant to visit!
Ordered lots of food...
Jiayi still feel like demanding for a dessert although she already full... lol ;p
and before going for the discussion,we went to FOS...
i got a half price shorts...spot it last time dy..luckily didn't buy,or else i gonna 'gek sei'! ahha =p
My group member is kind of rajin type people...compare with him,i am nothing lor...he seems super duper stress and worried for the coming finals...So,after the discussion, he went back already... Since i'm in the mall,i decided to shop around..i timed myself 1 hour to shop...
Saw some glamorous accessories at Vincci accesorries shop...So,i bought this... long time never add any new accessories for myself dy...finally can stock some for the coming CNY~
My next pit alone is Zara...
feel like getting myself another tight jeans of Zara ler...
But just get myself a Forever 21 black fit pants on my birthday...
well....considering...
Compare my current pic and my previous pic...that time i am still having long curly hair...i want to get that length back!!
camwhore-ing for the-day...
I stopped by at Jaya One for dinner before i go back to MC..
while waiting jiayi to finish work,i plan to have a short revision at Oldtown...
But,i saw some crowds at the centre court of Jaya One-Palm Square...
There's a performance from the former Malaysian Idol finalist- Saiful... ( don't even know this name before that...paiseh )
anyway,instead of go to Oldtown,i sat there and watched the performance...
well,there' still lots of space for improvement for the english song that he presents - No Promises...but for malay songs...it's quite nice...most of the malay songs' melody are taken from the chinese songs...
Songs that he performs are- Rindu,Ku masih cintaimu,Aku ada disini....
and there goes my day...
time to fight for exam,again! ^^
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
misery
my heart is bleeding blood...
i just can't help dropping tears again and again...
sleepless nights i had these days...
not really cope well with studies...
not really having a good life as what it seens by others...
Sorrow...
i'm in the middle of nowhere...
understanding and care is needed...
but who's care?
no one...
unfold the reality...
and this is where i am standing...
Thursday, November 6, 2008
你不是真正的快乐
世界笑了,于是你合群的一起笑了。。。
站在世界中心;可却觉得好像和这世界隔着了银河。。。
生存变成只是规则;而不是你的选择。。。
你不是真正的快乐。 。 。
你的笑只是一种习俗礼貌。。。
脱下所穿的保护色,你会不会就不再是透明的颜色呢?
你值得真正的快乐。。。
就让悲伤全部结束在此刻。
重新开始活着。。。
唱一首笑忘歌。。。
把伤心的都给忘了吧!
快乐可以是自找的。 。 。 。 。 。
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
it's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting through empty shores
Wondering how to make me strong
I know you'll be standing by my side
I know I will falter I will cry
It's along long journey
And I need to be close to you
sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Coze it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you...to you
Friday, October 17, 2008
发生什么事啊???
外婆生病了,下星期要动心藏手术。。。
外公的情况还需要特别加护。。。
几天前,我竟然梦见碧慧向我哭诉她的感情事。。。甚至害我差点迟到去上课。。。没想到当我告诉她那个有关她的梦境时,她却向我证实她的感情出现裂痕。。。
碧慧是我从小学就认识的好朋友。。。
我们很要好。。。刚上大学时,我们都说好说谁要是先谈恋爱了,要带男朋友出来给对方介绍。。。
没多久,她跟我说她有男朋友了。。。我也替她感到兴奋。。。
后来,我也谈恋爱了但没多久就失恋了。。。
还记得,第一次失恋,我陷入人生最低落期。。。每一天失眠,天天都打电话给碧慧哭诉好几个小时。。。她一直都很好地聆听我的哭诉,还一直替我抱不平,说要帮我臭骂那个伤我心的男人。。。
我告诉过自己不会再轻易相信男人。。。
一年多后,我却又恋爱了可没多久竟然被我发现他其实还对前女友念念不忘!
我怎么可以接受他的心还留住别的女人的身影??!
结果,我们分手了一次又一次。。。最后一次,他要我体谅他,还要我等他。。。
一开始,我真的还有点天真。。。在他面前假装装酷,可还是把心里的一个位置留给他,至到有一天,我发现他一早就有了新女友,而且他们在我和他还在一起时已经开始了!
痛了一次又一次,真的让我对男人没有信心了!
这些年来,我的自身遭遇让我对爱情失去了信心。。。
可碧慧不一样。。。我一直都很羡慕她有个这么爱她的男友。。。他们一直都很甜蜜啊!
我一直都很希望他们会有结果,让我相信真爱是存在的。。。
同时,我每次失恋时,都是碧慧一直在旁支持我。。。怕我一个人会胡丝乱想时,她要约会也会带同我出去。。。
那份感激我这辈子都不会忘记!
所以,碧慧啊。。。我知道感情事不是外人可以理解和推测的。。。我或许没有办法帮你找回你的爱情,可是,如果你需要倾诉,我可以做你的听众。。。
你们的爱情需要双方互相珍惜和努力。。。我会祝福你们的。。。
同时,想告诉你。。。我们是朋友,好朋友。。。
当我是朋友的话,有什么事情,尽管找我吧!就好像我以前我一直麻烦你一样~
希望未来的每一天都会是每一个人更好的一天~
**I Wish, in every future days to come,will be a better day for everyone!! *praying*
Thursday, October 16, 2008
爷爷

Friday, October 3, 2008
my October's jollity
Since September had end,i've had rest my memory and i wanna ring the bell, waiting for the spring to begins... ... ..
In this early of October,i did have lots of fun hanging out with jimuiss everyday...and Yeah,i love October!
At 1st of October,i've been for lunch with Phoebe and bf and H.Peng to Italianes in The Gardens...Actually,just few days ago that i found myself have no appetitte to consume any food at all...i even didn't eat anything whole day...BUT,food in Italianes really make my mouth-watered...Besides, we even got a free set for our next visit!Hooray!!! about the issue,hmm// dunno why this is the 2cd time i went to Italianes with free food from the manager...lol ;p So,if u want free food from Italianes,bring me along and try your luck lor...ahha =p
Here's the dessert-for-our-day ....Ta Da Da Dang >>>>>>>>>>
Capuccino Pie
with rich melting chocolate...it's soft ice-cream like and it meltsss! Ta-sty...Tasty Sweet!!
Then at night,i went to Jaya One,wait for Jiayi to finish work then we off to Halo Cafe for some drinks,musiC and of course leng zaisss!ahha =p
i get myself a ginger beer... but disappointly,it smells like toilet! but anyway,we did enjoy!!
At the 2cd of October,we have our girls day out to Pavillion...We headed to the cinema at first and Phoebe and H.Peng said wanna try out something different...and they suggested that we watch [Senario]
At night,i said i wanna have steak...i wanna treat myself better after the 'S-t-u-xxx' movie!wth and then,we bumped into a restaurant named RainForest Sports Bar.Since the waitress said it's ladies night and we can get free drinks, and since our clubbing plan cancelled,we get in there for dinner...the food is not bad,but the free drinks....hmm// i dun like it laa...The Long Island tea taste weird with gin tonic...The Magarita ok ok lor,but it's just sour sour sour~ anyway, the lady singer is singing pretty well...her voice is SEXY! and i found that the drinks from the menu are weirdly named...The Shooters names are like [ragging bulls,blowjob in the forest,sex on da beach] Interesting,rite?? lol ;p By the way,just get to know that H.Peng drank last night...ahha =p her face is chubbly red when she finished her Long Island Tea...anyway,H.Peng,you are cute with the red blush on your cheeks! so cute neh *_<
Been suffering from the moisquito bites at the night that cause me cannot sleep well,so i woke up early today...Took bus to Jaya One again,looking for a good breakfast...I went to Tappers for an english breakfast...I get myself seated in a corner,ate my english breakfast,listened to the oldies that played in the air and Yeah,i done my reading for [Who Moved My Cheese]
My Eglish Breakfast: half-boiled eggs,thin slice of beef bacon,mushrooms,sausage,red beans...it tastes "so so desu" but i felt satisfied enough.... ^^
Then,ex-roomie asked me out in the noon but ended up that she put me aeroplane...Nevermind,it won't spoilt my mood either....I get back to my hostel, put on hair mask and facial mask while blogging here and today is still a beautiful day for me...^^
[Who Moved My Cheese] told me great stories that is realistic and applicable to apply in our life. and now,i am going to moved with the cheese!!Who's know that there might be HUGE Camembert Hills awaiting me out there??! lol ;p
with that,thanks for reading my this long-winded diaries-like entry...have a nice day,everyone! =)
Sunday, September 28, 2008
The dancing of the RaiN / Pitter-patter of the RaiN
It's actually that during my exam period,it used to rain heavily almost everyday...Felt so boring while doing revision,so i captured down the tapping of the rain....and you know what?I just found out that rain do dance...and it's awesome!!okay,i know that i sound insane...believe it or not,just watch this! >>>>>>>>>
Well,maybe those pics make no difference to see so called 'the dance of rain'...trust me,save those pics and played it constantly,you should have see it!
the part 2 >>>
Trust me,it's awesome!!!they are tapping like tap dancing...(踢踏舞)...
So,i guess that's why they said it 'pitter-patter of the rain'...As pitter-patter means the sound of quick light taps...
I used to stopped and gazed out the window,looking at the rain or the sky...It simply makes me feel at ease...
I love rainy days...
it can makes me emo and it can makes me at ease...
However,it can be so annoying if i have to dress fancy,wearing heels and still i need to take bus to go out somewhere else and it RAINSsssss!really pissed me off la wei...
Wait....but if i am under an umbrella with the loved-one's,or perhaps make it more romantic by kissing in the rain...ahha =p then,the rainy day can definitely be very very memorable....*romantic maa* lol ;p
and a chinese song to intro in my playlist here...南拳妈妈-下雨天....very nice song and i love it when rainy days...lol ;p
Sunday, September 7, 2008
a day-saturday!

Then,our next pit is The Gardens...Since my friend never been there,so we just walk walk around there only...Didn't have any intension to do shopping...But,i accidentally found T-shirts that catch my eyes...It's from The Mook!but it's really quite expensive and no any discount.So,i will just re-consider lorr....
and when we walk through the first floor,we spot an exhibition about Merdeka celebration...It's from The One Academy's students...I know that it may be quite late to post about Merdeka entry but after all,i just wanna share those pics that i captured at here...Here you go.....
[Are you patriotic?]
[Hibiscus]
i love this piece of art the most!What can you see from the picture??- Let the bygones be bygone,the future is in our hands!
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Scarcity

Generally, we can only choose either one and ONLY ONE.Then,there might be no turning back.Unless you are lucky enough...that is extreme exceptional case...
So,to choose alternative A,we foregone alternative B or vice versa.
So,sorry to disappoint you-alternative A or maybe alternative B...
Don't blame me...Blame "scarcity" larh ;p
Friday, August 22, 2008
-untitle-
I'm trying hard to hold my tears and breath as hard....
Stress...i am stress...i am very very stress...
Please,allow me to have a peace of mind....
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...
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Praying hard...
Breathing hard...
Trying hard...
Holding hard...
Thursday, August 21, 2008
一场雨。雨一场
雨滴答滴答的落下。。。沿着昨天,把我带到过去回忆的牵挂。。。
转眼瞬间,那曾经的感动早已换了季。。。
告别这落叶的季节,希望雨停以前,飞出想念。。。
雨停后,在这暖暖的空气里,阳光会把潮湿的回忆晒干。。。
我会从倔强找到勇气。。。
我会学着不害怕。。。
我相信一切的美好不会是假的。。。
一切的美丽会在下一段故事里廷续。。。
祝福彼此吧~
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Sara
I don't know what kind of adulthood life that I am going to live through...It's yet to be explore ...
and this song linger in my mind very often lately...
When I was just a little girl,
I asked my mother,what will I be?
Will I be pretty?Will I be rich?
That's what she said to me:
"Hey Sara,Sara...Whatever will be...will be...
The future not our's to see...Hey Sara,Sara...What will be...Will be..."
The journey is yet to begins... and
I am searching for the light to shine along the way...
Wish me luck ^^
Monday, July 21, 2008
恋空3-我和天空谈恋爱
以下是我部份影摄的恋空照。。。
张张的恋空照演绎出不同时段的我,带着不同的心情。。。
[巴士沿途中,青青的稻草。。。我知道离家不远了。。。]
最近流行的 lomography 相机也很不错。。。可以玩视觉效果。。。
存着钱。。。我要将它变成囊中物!
天空在等着我吗?
Saturday, July 19, 2008
恋空 2
The sky's the limit!