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執着

2011-04-01T19:24:00.003+08:00

為什麼沒有早一步相遇？也沒有晚一步？

執着有时候是很累的。。

明明知道不应该；明明知道不可能。。

为什么，还是会執着？

或许，執着只是因为放不下；不是爱。。

爱情，终究是经营不来；也免强不来的。。

我们只能放任它人，也放任自己。。让一切顺其自然。。

或许，有一天。。我们会发现其实我们并没有自己想像的深情。。

等到那一天，卸下心中的執着。。我们或许会更懂得珍惜当下的美好。。

好想来点微薰。。

微薰了，或许就不会那么執着了。。

Updates..of life and friendship

2011-02-27T21:42:00.003+08:00

All in a sudden,i thought of writing an updates about recent life here..maybe just because that facebook has become a too public place and i do not like to talk too openly there..

So since that my blog here has been isolated for such a long period of time,guess there will be very few people to stop by..

anyhow,its just a personal free space for me to write out any of my plain thoughts..iamhappytowritewhatiwanttowritehere,ok?

Well,just finish watching a movie -"The Women", acted by Megan Ryan..its a 2008 movie. The strong bond of friendship fond by the women in the movie makes me think about my friends around me. I hope I do have these kind of strong friendship with my bffs until the day we all grow olds.Maybe at the time of the day, we shall do botox together, discuss about our husband and kids if we are all married or maybe just tea together while recalling to our good old times again and again.Ohhhhh,how sweet it gonna be! i wish it will all come true..

p/s: u know i just love u,my bffs!

i just do my first laser treatment weeks ago, finger cross that i will have baby smooth skin very soon and no more pimples,pls! ; )

the time bomb! USE THE RIGHT WORDS!!

2010-09-27T20:51:00.004+08:00

i'm back in action!

been alone to do works and get to observe all walks of life..

This opens me to see the society ills of polarising evidence.. eg: you-are-amazing-but-the-truth-is-you're-crap!! (inner thoughts)

take your mask down,bitch! you are not treating people sincerely, so you do not deserve to be treated sincerely as well! FAIR and SQUARE !! same goes to the business today, especially service industry..

As a marketing students, i always know that social interacting skill is important to build up a wide network. However, the key of SUCCESS is ONLY to service people SINCERELY from your heart!

and as apply to friendship,i'd always treasure all my friends around me.. when i say FRIENDS, i DO REALLY MEAN IT!! but somehow, i'd always missed the moments where we used to talk closely, intimately, OPENLY TO ANYTHING,EVERYTHING!! okay, i may sound childish or boring or whatever, those are the moments where TRUE FRIENDSHIP are formed!

i'd always feel more comfortable when i am alone lately or only with close friends! this is because that i feel awkward when surrounded with clown or insincere fake people!

evidence to this are two evidence tht i would like to share:

evidence 1: beautician A

"i feel sad for ur skin condition..", "r u okay? is it because tht u feel stress lately?are u into a relationship?and blah blah blah"- she is ultimately sincere or even tht she doesn't mean it from her bottom of heart, at least she did not make me feel bad abt myself..but one thing i would like to point out is tht DO NOT EVER ASK ANYTHING ABT UR CUSTOMER"S PRIVACY! i dun feel tht there's a need for me to tell u abt my privacy tht is cross beyond my line, so DON"T ASK! perhaps, she acts over caring..

evidence 2: beautician B

"aiyoyo! ur skin condition is terrible like hell!i feel headache looking at ur pimples! this is what happen when you seldom come for facial! " - okay! i admit tht i do not hav good skin!i do hav pimples since long ago but it never cure from roots!i come for facial is because i need you to clear it away for me, not for u to criticize till make me feel that you are not professional, u do not respect ur customer, you are a paliah beautician and etc..

The above evidence does not mean tht i cannot take negative feedback or criticism! but it's about the way tht how they talk abt it!

GOOD CRITICISM BUILDS PEOPLE UP; BAD CRITICISM TEARS THEM DOWN!!

no one likes to hear tht they are not awesome, including myself! BUT if you use the right words, i will thank u for telling me the truth and helping me to improve..

So, PLEASE MIND YOUR WORDS! USE THE RIGHT WORDS, IDIOTS!!

okay, i shall call this entry a time bomb! lol ;p till then, wait for the next bomb ba =)

the decision

2010-03-12T23:34:00.005+08:00

Well, finally i had made up my mind..i decided to stay...
I know that it is an opportunity of once-in-a-life-time and almost all the people around me encouraged me to go...
After all, i just do not have enough confidence to prepare myself to undergo the loneliness in the cold there...
*p/s : hopefully i won't regret in the future

Anyhow, i had enrolled a japanese language course at UTAR and hopefully i can make full use of it to benefit my future undergoings. Or perhaps, i can probably go to Japan for half year for an intensive course? Who's know?!

Of all the lovely friends i had here, i just wanted to say thank you all so much for all the cheers and laughter that we shared...

I love all my BFF! -xoxo-

Goodbye?

2010-02-25T18:20:00.003+08:00

i know it's been long time that i never update my blog...been busy in love,i admit~
and now,all in a sudden..i fall into a situation that i might face long distance separation in a near future...
i'm so reluctant to leave but yet i realised that i have to focus on a big picture instead of a small puzzle...
and now, i am emo-ing alone in Wendy's Jaya One listening to James Blunt's song - Goodbye my lover...
and it inspires me to write this blog......

Did i disappoint you or let you down?

Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?

'Cause I saw the end before we begun,

Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right.

Took your soul out into the night.

It may be over but it won't stop there,

I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.

You changed my life and all my goals.

And love is blind and that i Knew when,

My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your head.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.

I know you welll, I know your smell.

I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend,

you have been the one.

you have been the one for me.

I'm a dreamer but when I wake,

You can't break my spirit

It's in your dreams you take.

And as you move on, remember me,

remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry,I've seen you smile.

I've watched you sleeping for a while.

I'd be the father of your child.

I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.

We've had our doubts but now we're fine,

And I love you,I swear that's true.

I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye mye friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover,

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

And i still hold your hand in mine.

In mine when i'm asleep.

And i will bear my soul in time,

When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

Goodbye my lover.

Goodbye my friend.

You have been the one.

You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby..I'm so hollow.

I'm so,I'm so, I'm so hollow...

no matter what, pls do remember that i love you,b~

the emo queen's crap

2009-03-24T21:33:00.002+08:00

I wonder...what spell i am under...
I'm in a state of depression...i think...
Eyes are red,tears are shed..
Felt so hopeless that i can't fix anything...
I don't know what else that i can do to make things get better...
I don't know...
I don't know if i can still believe and keep my faith on my journey...
i don't know...
Happiness...Laughter...smiley...it's all seems far far away..that i can't reach...
Family..friendship..love.... it seems that i cannot afford to gain anything of it...
i hate myself...
[tonight i wanna cry]

well,i know i'm crapping...do ignore my crap...

i'm just another emo out here...

牙关

2009-03-06T11:54:00.005+08:00

那年少轻狂的岁月，我没有忘记它是有多么的美丽。。

那喧闹的笑声很真实的一直在回响。。。

一起翻越城墙的梦，依然会是我们共同持有的梦想吗？

成长真的是过滤梦想的旅程吗？可我最不想过滤掉的是和你一起的旅程。。。

如果因为爱而让我迷失了自己；失去了情谊。。。

那我希望因为情而让我们可以一起继续这旅程。。。

收集了许多许多我们灿烂的笑脸，把回忆图一块一块的拼着。。也希望可以一直拼着。。

听说死神也怕咬紧牙关。。。

你怕不怕？我不怕。。

因为你给的勇气战胜了我内心的恐惧。。

五月天的牙关让我继续。。。

死神也怕咬紧牙关的故事：

http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_4a9edaf4010008vn.html

moving on with the days

2008-11-22T18:51:00.003+08:00

Exam is approaching,yet there're tonnes of workloads awaiting me to complete...
i got no time to shed a tear right this moment anymore...
i have to move on!

Had a discussion with a group member at The Border's Starbucks at The Garden justnow...It takes time to modify others works so,we decide to re-do everything...It will be much easier for us...This might be kind of bit autocratic and sound irrespect to others but we are lack o f time to ask them to re-do and guide them how to do...it's so much tiring...

Since, we are at Starbucks,i get myself a new drink intro for X'mas season...

Instead of my all-time-fav-Java Chips, i get myself Toffee Nut Frapuccino...i love it! = ) and guess you should have love it too!get yourself one ba if you go Starbucks ;p

Besides, i get myself a mini book at Borders...
It brings lights to my dull hectic day!

The formula of happinessS

Before that,i had an early lunch with Jiayi at Zenmai...
It's our favourite sushi restaurant to visit!
Ordered lots of food...
Jiayi still feel like demanding for a dessert although she already full... lol ;p

The sushi freak

and before going for the discussion,we went to FOS...
i got a half price shorts...spot it last time dy..luckily didn't buy,or else i gonna 'gek sei'! ahha =p

My group member is kind of rajin type people...compare with him,i am nothing lor...he seems super duper stress and worried for the coming finals...So,after the discussion, he went back already... Since i'm in the mall,i decided to shop around..i timed myself 1 hour to shop...

Saw some glamorous accessories at Vincci accesorries shop...So,i bought this... long time never add any new accessories for myself dy...finally can stock some for the coming CNY~

my earrings and anklet!look galmour not?? ^.=

My next pit alone is Zara...
feel like getting myself another tight jeans of Zara ler...
But just get myself a Forever 21 black fit pants on my birthday...
well....considering...

Compare my current pic and my previous pic...that time i am still having long curly hair...i want to get that length back!!

camwhore-ing for the-day...

I stopped by at Jaya One for dinner before i go back to MC..
while waiting jiayi to finish work,i plan to have a short revision at Oldtown...
But,i saw some crowds at the centre court of Jaya One-Palm Square...
There's a performance from the former Malaysian Idol finalist- Saiful... ( don't even know this name before that...paiseh )
anyway,instead of go to Oldtown,i sat there and watched the performance...
well,there' still lots of space for improvement for the english song that he presents - No Promises...but for malay songs...it's quite nice...most of the malay songs' melody are taken from the chinese songs...

Songs that he performs are- Rindu,Ku masih cintaimu,Aku ada disini....

and there goes my day...

time to fight for exam,again! ^^

misery

2008-11-19T21:13:00.012+08:00

[tears from the wounded heart]

Misery...
my heart is bleeding blood...

it's shaking from the pain that is in my head...

i lose myself in all these fights...

Tears

been crying in extreme for more than 2 hours...

make up that i wear blurred my vision...
i just can't help dropping tears again and again...

eyes flooded with tears...

but i left it dried by fans on the ceiling...

Stress...
sleepless nights i had these days...

caffeine can't help but worsen the nights with fears and trembles...
not really cope well with studies...
not really having a good life as what it seens by others...

Sorrow...
i'm in the middle of nowhere...
understanding and care is needed...

but who's care?
no one...

unfold the reality...
and this is where i am standing...

* my eyes is super puffy now

你不是真正的快乐

2008-11-06T15:45:00.003+08:00

你是人群中透明的颜色。。。
世界笑了，于是你合群的一起笑了。。。
站在世界中心；可却觉得好像和这世界隔着了银河。。。
生存变成只是规则；而不是你的选择。。。

你不是真正的快乐。。。
你的笑只是一种习俗礼貌。。。
脱下所穿的保护色，你会不会就不再是透明的颜色呢？

你值得真正的快乐。。。
就让悲伤全部结束在此刻。
重新开始活着。。。

唱一首笑忘歌。。。
把伤心的都给忘了吧！

快乐可以是自找的。。。。。。

it's a long long journey

2008-10-22T18:42:00.006+08:00

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
Many days I've spent
Drifting through empty shores
Wondering how to make me strong
I know you'll be standing by my side
I know I will falter I will cry
It's along long journey
And I need to be close to you
sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Coze it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you...to you

发生什么事啊？？?

2008-10-17T15:54:00.004+08:00

发生什么事啊？？？

外婆生病了，下星期要动心藏手术。。。
外公的情况还需要特别加护。。。
几天前，我竟然梦见碧慧向我哭诉她的感情事。。。甚至害我差点迟到去上课。。。没想到当我告诉她那个有关她的梦境时，她却向我证实她的感情出现裂痕。。。

碧慧是我从小学就认识的好朋友。。。
我们很要好。。。刚上大学时，我们都说好说谁要是先谈恋爱了，要带男朋友出来给对方介绍。。。
没多久，她跟我说她有男朋友了。。。我也替她感到兴奋。。。
后来，我也谈恋爱了但没多久就失恋了。。。
还记得，第一次失恋，我陷入人生最低落期。。。每一天失眠，天天都打电话给碧慧哭诉好几个小时。。。她一直都很好地聆听我的哭诉，还一直替我抱不平，说要帮我臭骂那个伤我心的男人。。。
我告诉过自己不会再轻易相信男人。。。
一年多后，我却又恋爱了可没多久竟然被我发现他其实还对前女友念念不忘！
我怎么可以接受他的心还留住别的女人的身影？？！
结果，我们分手了一次又一次。。。最后一次，他要我体谅他，还要我等他。。。
一开始，我真的还有点天真。。。在他面前假装装酷，可还是把心里的一个位置留给他，至到有一天，我发现他一早就有了新女友，而且他们在我和他还在一起时已经开始了！
痛了一次又一次，真的让我对男人没有信心了！
这些年来，我的自身遭遇让我对爱情失去了信心。。。
可碧慧不一样。。。我一直都很羡慕她有个这么爱她的男友。。。他们一直都很甜蜜啊！
我一直都很希望他们会有结果，让我相信真爱是存在的。。。
同时，我每次失恋时，都是碧慧一直在旁支持我。。。怕我一个人会胡丝乱想时，她要约会也会带同我出去。。。
那份感激我这辈子都不会忘记！

所以，碧慧啊。。。我知道感情事不是外人可以理解和推测的。。。我或许没有办法帮你找回你的爱情，可是，如果你需要倾诉，我可以做你的听众。。。
你们的爱情需要双方互相珍惜和努力。。。我会祝福你们的。。。
同时，想告诉你。。。我们是朋友，好朋友。。。
当我是朋友的话，有什么事情，尽管找我吧！就好像我以前我一直麻烦你一样~

希望未来的每一天都会是每一个人更好的一天~
**I Wish, in every future days to come,will be a better day for everyone!! *praying*

爷爷

2008-10-16T15:13:00.006+08:00

爷爷泡的茶，有一种味道叫做家

陆羽泡的茶，听说名和利都不拿

爷爷泡的茶，有一种味道叫做家

陆羽泡的茶，像幅泼墨的山水画

山泉，在地表蜿蜒，从很久很久以前

我有一张稚气的脸，泉水渗透进矿層巖

爷爷栽种的樟木树苗上面

犹记得那年，在一个雨天

那七岁的我躲在屋檐，却一直想去荡秋千

爷爷抽着烟，说唐朝陆羽写茶经三卷

流传了千年

记得那天，我翻阅字典

查什么字眼，形容一件事很遥远

天边，是否在海角对面

直到九岁才知道浪费时间

这茶桌樟木的横切面，年轮有二十三圈

镜头的另一边，跳接我成熟的脸

经过这些年，爷爷的手茧

泡在水里会有茶色蔓延

爷爷泡的茶，有一种味道叫做家

没法挑剔他口感味觉还不差

陆羽泡的茶，听说名和利都不拿

他牵着一匹瘦马走天涯

爷爷泡的茶，有一种味道叫做家

他满头白发，喝茶时不准说话

陆羽泡的茶，像幅泼墨的山水画

唐朝千年的风沙现在还在刮

周董-《爷爷泡的茶》

我的爷爷泡的茶，也有一种味道叫做家。。。

小时候的日记里有记载下：

今天，第一次骑爷爷驾的摩哆，好棒，好刺激噢！

今天，不够车用了，大家都在忙，爷爷只好用罗哩载我回家。。。（我的爷爷是在行家私的）

今天，爷爷带我一起去看大戏，还给了我一块钱买冰淇淋。。。（小时候，爷爷给的RM1已经足够换我一辈子回忆童年的快乐）

今天考试拿满分，爷爷有给我奖励耶~

照相簿里都有贴放着一张张爷爷把我抱在手心里的照片。。。

那些这些都是爷爷疼爱我的证据！

我一天一天地长大；爷爷却一天一天地老去，头发宾白。。。

爷爷老了。。。。。近年前，还患上老人痴呆症。。

那天，爷爷跌倒住院，我回去看他。。。

发现爷爷真的老了。。。

我叫他“爷爷”。。。没多久，他转头问阿姨：“欣怡呢？欣怡没有来吗？”

那时，只感觉很惆怅。。。

爷爷老了。。。他有时甚至认不清我了。。。

我不是医生，没有办法让爷爷快点好起来；只能够在旁给他默默地加油。。。

就好像以前，爷爷为我加油，要我用功读书一样。。。

爷爷，加油！赶快好起来！！让我再泡杯好茶给你喝吧！

my October's jollity

2008-10-03T15:08:00.024+08:00

Green Day sang a song named- [Wake me up when September ends]...
Since September had end,i've had rest my memory and i wanna ring the bell, waiting for the spring to begins... ... ..

In this early of October,i did have lots of fun hanging out with jimuiss everyday...and Yeah,i love October!

At 1st of October,i've been for lunch with Phoebe and bf and H.Peng to Italianes in The Gardens...Actually,just few days ago that i found myself have no appetitte to consume any food at all...i even didn't eat anything whole day...BUT,food in Italianes really make my mouth-watered...Besides, we even got a free set for our next visit!Hooray!!! about the issue,hmm// dunno why this is the 2cd time i went to Italianes with free food from the manager...lol ;p So,if u want free food from Italianes,bring me along and try your luck lor...ahha =p

Here's the dessert-for-our-day ....Ta Da Da Dang >>>>>>>>>>
Capuccino Pie

with rich melting chocolate...it's soft ice-cream like and it meltsss! Ta-sty...Tasty Sweet!!

Then at night,i went to Jaya One,wait for Jiayi to finish work then we off to Halo Cafe for some drinks,musiC and of course leng zaisss!ahha =p
i get myself a ginger beer...
but disappointly,it smells like toilet! but anyway,we did enjoy!!

At the 2cd of October,we have our girls day out to Pavillion...We headed to the cinema at first and Phoebe and H.Peng said wanna try out something different...and they suggested that we watch [Senario]...Okay,since it's raya time and to show our support for local movies,we got a deal with that...but then,i felt like cabut lari from the cinema lor...it's so lame stupid laa...to be honest,it's really a stupid stupid STUPID show!waste my rm12 for this kind of stupid movie...sucks laa!but,seriously,not discriminating malay laa...just that it's really stupid maa!okay,i know i should stop saying the word 's-t-u-p-i-d' since it's a mean word! wth wth wth wth~

At night,i said i wanna have steak...i wanna treat myself better after the 'S-t-u-xxx' movie!wth and then,we bumped into a restaurant named RainForest Sports Bar.Since the waitress said it's ladies night and we can get free drinks, and since our clubbing plan cancelled,we get in there for dinner...the food is not bad,but the free drinks....hmm// i dun like it laa...The Long Island tea taste weird with gin tonic...The Magarita ok ok lor,but it's just sour sour sour~ anyway, the lady singer is singing pretty well...her voice is SEXY! and i found that the drinks from the menu are weirdly named...The Shooters names are like [ragging bulls,blowjob in the forest,sex on da beach] Interesting,rite?? lol ;p By the way,just get to know that H.Peng drank last night...ahha =p her face is chubbly red when she finished her Long Island Tea...anyway,H.Peng,you are cute with the red blush on your cheeks! so cute neh *_<

Been suffering from the moisquito bites at the night that cause me cannot sleep well,so i woke up early today...Took bus to Jaya One again,looking for a good breakfast...I went to Tappers for an english breakfast...I get myself seated in a corner,ate my english breakfast,listened to the oldies that played in the air and Yeah,i done my reading for [Who Moved My Cheese] there!It can so fulfilling,so leisure...i luv morning like this!

My Eglish Breakfast: half-boiled eggs,thin slice of beef bacon,mushrooms,sausage,red beans...it tastes "so so desu" but i felt satisfied enough.... ^^

Then,ex-roomie asked me out in the noon but ended up that she put me aeroplane...Nevermind,it won't spoilt my mood either....I get back to my hostel, put on hair mask and facial mask while blogging here and today is still a beautiful day for me...^^

[Who Moved My Cheese]- read it.learn it.live it !!!

[Who Moved My Cheese] told me great stories that is realistic and applicable to apply in our life. and now,i am going to moved with the cheese!!Who's know that there might be HUGE Camembert Hills awaiting me out there??! lol ;p

with that,thanks for reading my this long-winded diaries-like entry...have a nice day,everyone! =)

The dancing of the RaiN / Pitter-patter of the RaiN

2008-09-28T16:48:00.013+08:00

Okie...i know that the raining seasons is going to end soon and i'm a bit out-to-date...Anyway,as i promised...here you go....the entry of The Dance Of Rain~lol ;p

It's actually that during my exam period,it used to rain heavily almost everyday...Felt so boring while doing revision,so i captured down the tapping of the rain....and you know what?I just found out that rain do dance...and it's awesome!!okay,i know that i sound insane...believe it or not,just watch this! >>>>>>>>>

Well,maybe those pics make no difference to see so called 'the dance of rain'...trust me,save those pics and played it constantly,you should have see it!

the part 2 >>>

Trust me,it's awesome!!!they are tapping like tap dancing...(踢踏舞)...

So,i guess that's why they said it 'pitter-patter of the rain'...As pitter-patter means the sound of quick light taps...

I used to stopped and gazed out the window,looking at the rain or the sky...It simply makes me feel at ease...

I love rainy days...
it can makes me emo and it can makes me at ease...
However,it can be so annoying if i have to dress fancy,wearing heels and still i need to take bus to go out somewhere else and it RAINSsssss!really pissed me off la wei...

Wait....but if i am under an umbrella with the loved-one's,or perhaps make it more romantic by kissing in the rain...ahha =p then,the rainy day can definitely be very very memorable....*romantic maa* lol ;p

and a chinese song to intro in my playlist here...南拳妈妈-下雨天....very nice song and i love it when rainy days...lol ;p

a day-saturday!

2008-09-07T16:38:00.012+08:00

Holiday now luu~~~~~Went to Midvalley to catch a movie with friend yesterday. We tried so hard to book the tickets online but almost all fully booked dy~aiks// have to take a long q to buy the tickets....And finally,we get to watch this >>>>> Deception!

It's directed by the first timer Marcel Langenegger. As for the first try,i can say that the storyline is quite interesting as it always keep me guessing the ending...Guys,you gonna catch this as there're lots of sexy scenes that you won't wanna miss...Maggie Q is wearing sexy blouse inside too ^^ but Malaysia's cinema,u know laa...censored a lot dy...or else,there must be plenty much more!!hehe =p

Then,our next pit is The Gardens...Since my friend never been there,so we just walk walk around there only...Didn't have any intension to do shopping...But,i accidentally found T-shirts that catch my eyes...It's from The Mook!but it's really quite expensive and no any discount.So,i will just re-consider lorr....

and when we walk through the first floor,we spot an exhibition about Merdeka celebration...It's from The One Academy's students...I know that it may be quite late to post about Merdeka entry but after all,i just wanna share those pics that i captured at here...Here you go.....

[One Heart ; One Mind ]

The metal wire is used to represent prosperity of Malaysia, with the metals inside as the many ethnicities in our country united in 1 heart 1 mind.

[51 years of Nation Building]

As a nation,we have developed progressively since we become independent....The poster color drawing represents the achievement that we have in public and private industries..

[Are you patriotic?]

A simple question to provokes you....Are you patriotic??

[Hibiscus]

Its focus is on the hibiscus of Malaysia in five different hues representing the diversity of malaysian culture...Yellow-signifying happiness and the King together with the freedom fighters; Blood in red- serve as a reminder to commemorate those who sacrificed in return for the Independent that we are celebrating now...

[the 'V']

The 'V' (peace sign) creates the star represent the 13 states and federal government of Malaysia's '2-gather'.

[Dawn]

i love this piece of art the most!What can you see from the picture??- Let the bygones be bygone,the future is in our hands!

That's all for this entry...Next time update you something interesting...The Dance of Rain....^^

Scarcity

2008-09-04T15:01:00.006+08:00

"to choose is to lose" - true,very accurately true!

-We are all faced with scarcity,and as a consequences,we must make choices.

"an opportunity cost is an opportunity lost"

-To get more of anything that is desirable,you must accept less of something else that you also value....

Ai said: "In reality,we faced trade-off.We cannot make other happy without making others unhappy..."

Do you agree with her???

Just finished my econs paper today...Been studying text books like mad these days...To make myself more focus,i need to stay away from 'seduction',which is - my lovely bed,blanket and pc!

LOL ;p That's why I've been a regular customer of Oldtown at Jaya One...From the time they opened their shop until they close... haha ~ Well,I did shift to other places as well, sometimes,such as McD, Halo cafe, Starbucks... .. But still i prefer Oldtown and McD the most!

When i feel sleepy,can order a cup of coffee...i'm a coffee-lover!;p but these days drinking coffee like drinking water,so i got a bit abnormal sign dy...have to stop it...hehe =p About McD...it's always a nice place for youngster to hangout and the best thing is....soft drinks there can refill!!muahahaha...can save $$ to order drinks...

Okay,let's back to the point...

Relationship between Scarcity and the Growing Expectations:

It is likely that over a period of time,a rising quantity of goods and services will not increase human happiness.Why?? -

Our wants grow as fast,if not faster than our ability to meet those wants,so that we still feel scarcity as much or more than we did before.

[above statement are copied from econs text books...lol ;p]

Every human beings have greed...Our desire to own something will never end...But it's always some situation that we can't get everything that we desire.Even the rich do face scarcity as well...Like for example,being popular.In order to gain popularity,you might need to sacrifice your freedom,perhaps...or maybe your time spend with your loved ones'.

I've come to a point where there's no turning back.I cannot look back and i shall not!

I've make myself learn not to regret and start listing down my priority list.

I shall not,shall not always looking backward!It won't help in giving me any gain,instead i got a loss.A loss of not appreciating what i owned now.

I'm trading-off my past,to get a better me-the lady that i shaped for my future.

I wanna be the lady!the kind of lady!!

sorry,if i choose to foregone you...i have to foregone you,the opportunity cost!

and if i did make anyone feel bad or unhappy,sorry is the only word that i can say...

It's because i need to make someone else happy or perhaps,my own sometimes and that's why i have to turn you down...[trade-off theory comes in]

Ai statement is true...I agree~

In conclusion,"to choose is to lose".Thus,scarcity exist everywhere in every kind of situation.

p/s: that's exactly the last sentence that i wrote for my econs essay today.. ;p

Generally, we can only choose either one and ONLY ONE.Then,there might be no turning back.Unless you are lucky enough...that is extreme exceptional case...

So,to choose alternative A,we foregone alternative B or vice versa.

So,sorry to disappoint you-alternative A or maybe alternative B...

Don't blame me...Blame "scarcity" larh ;p

-untitle-

2008-08-22T15:39:00.003+08:00

Again,it's another rainy days... ...
I'm trying hard to hold my tears and breath as hard....
Stress...i am stress...i am very very stress...
Please,allow me to have a peace of mind....
...
...
...
...
...
Praying hard...
Breathing hard...
Trying hard...
Holding hard...

一场雨。雨一场

2008-08-21T14:14:00.005+08:00

下雨了。。。
雨滴答滴答的落下。。。沿着昨天，把我带到过去回忆的牵挂。。。
转眼瞬间，那曾经的感动早已换了季。。。
告别这落叶的季节，希望雨停以前，飞出想念。。。

雨停后，在这暖暖的空气里，阳光会把潮湿的回忆晒干。。。
我会从倔强找到勇气。。。
我会学着不害怕。。。
我相信一切的美好不会是假的。。。
一切的美丽会在下一段故事里廷续。。。
祝福彼此吧~

Sara

2008-07-26T00:00:00.001+08:00

I am officially 21!
I don't know what kind of adulthood life that I am going to live through...It's yet to be explore ...
and this song linger in my mind very often lately...

[ Sara ]
When I was just a little girl,
I asked my mother,what will I be?
Will I be pretty?Will I be rich?
That's what she said to me:
"Hey Sara,Sara...Whatever will be...will be...
The future not our's to see...Hey Sara,Sara...What will be...Will be..."

The journey is yet to begins... and
I am searching for the light to shine along the way...
Wish me luck ^^

恋空3-我和天空谈恋爱

2008-07-21T09:31:00.001+08:00

我一直都在和天空谈恋爱。。。

以下是我部份影摄的恋空照。。。
张张的恋空照演绎出不同时段的我，带着不同的心情。。。

[巴士沿途中，青青的稻草。。。我知道离家不远了。。。]

[槟岛-在婆婆家附近,看着天和海连成一条线。。。婆婆，你都还好吗？]

[ferry上，那时风刮得很大。。。等待着靠岸-一个安全的，温暖的避风港]

[外婆店外的天空-外婆，我突然很想你。。。你做的饭，烧的菜，包的汤是天下最最最美味的。]

[和Nellie在kepong跑步时照的-太阳快下山咯！]

[ MC 晓吉力以前的房外- 有时候，我们会倚靠在那，看天空，数车龙，还有一起说梦。。。]

[赶assignment整夜不睡觉-天刚要破晓。。。月亮再见咯~太阳快升起吧！又是全新的一天了！]

[曾经在Melati家的天台外，月光的作祟下，展发出一段两个人的故事。。。]

[但是很快的，同一年，我宣告失恋了。。。在hometown,从二楼窗外望出去，泪还在滴。。。可晚霞还是那么的美。。。我说过我会好好过。。。]

[Sibu,Rejang江那儿的天空。。。天空底下的我，正想对你诉说suki desu。。。]

[孙燕姿-风筝。看着风筝穿越云端，飞得很高。。我知道天空多美妙。。。我在微笑，把梦想找到。。]

嘻嘻~~有一些不是很清。。。没法啦。。。只不过是本人用k750i 2.0 mega pixel 手机拍的。。。

所以，我真的很想拥有一部专业的相机，学摄影。。。
最近流行的 lomography 相机也很不错。。。可以玩视觉效果。。。
存着钱。。。我要将它变成囊中物!

天空在等着我吗？

恋空 2

2008-07-19T02:49:00.004+08:00

从恋空1开始，每一天，我总会习惯性的把头抬；看天空。。。

一个人在房里独处的时候，我会倚望窗外的天空。。

心情低落得要命的时候，只要踏出去看看天空，就会很自然的笑了。。。就会好多了。。。

荡秋千时，我会把头倒后看天空。。。

天空，颠倒来看时，我会发现地面上的地平线足以平衡我心里的平衡线。。。

和同事吃夜宵等食物端上的当儿，我也会举头望明月。。。

月光，隐隐闪耀。。。像在叫我别害怕。。。我不是孤单一个人的。。。

想家的时候，我也会看天空；然后凭想象，在云里拟出家人的容貌。。。

真希望云可以当我最好的邮差，把我对他们的想念快递给他们。。。

夜深人静的时候，我更习惯性地会看天空，向星星喃喃心语。。。

飞机划过天际的时候，我也会盯着天空看，至到它飞得太远，我看不见了为此。。。

婆婆家就在槟城机场附近，在那而，有我的秘密基地。。。

小时候，我会抬头好奇地指着天空上的一条直线问：为什么天空上会有一条线的呢？

长大了问，就会被人骂：那就不过是飞机线嘛。。。笨！

不过，我还是想要有点童真地问。。。嘻嘻~

当我受挫，想放弃的时候，望着天空上漂浮着的云朵里似乎预言着生命中变幻莫澈的命运。。。

云说：生命中有无限的可能。。。我和你，我们都有绝对的能量可以创造出自己的一片天！

所以，不可以放弃！只要永不，永不放弃，就会有成功的机会！

[守得云开见明月] = ）

The sky's the limit!

untitle

2008-07-11T09:03:00.003+08:00

Clock keeps ticking like it's laughing at me; why waste tomorrow chasing yesterday...
Days go by in a pulseless haze...
I wonder what spell I'm under; who's that person wearing my face??
I part my lips to speak but the words are out to reach...

It ain't easy...
I'm half alive but i felt mostly dead...

Okay,fine...
I just shouldn't think anymore...not much time for me to waste...

It's a brand new day again...
Ohaiyo [ goodmorning ] !

P/s: please tell me to GAMBATAE neh~
and i will gambatae...

GAMBATAE neh,Xinyi!

如果你也想起我。。。

2008-07-03T05:13:00.003+08:00

睡不着。。。
悬着一颗心没着落。。。
房间里没有亮灯。。。
把自己关在夜一般黑的思绪里。。。
冰封许久的回忆随着音乐的鼓舞让我突然觉察到原来那恋的甜，离我已多么地遥远。。。

近来，生活忙碌得好压力。。。
每天，除了上课，打工，我近乎没有多余的时间给自己。。。
睡觉，是我的奢侈品。。。
我也不容自己想太多。。。
可是，就是会有这样一个的夜晚，我越界了。。。

会不会有这样一个的夜晚，你也会突然想起我？
如果你想起了我，你又会想到了什么？

0707116 最小的事

2008-06-27T03:27:00.019+08:00

晓吉力~

这一刻，最重要的事，是属于你，最小的事。。。

我们每个平凡小事，变成永恒故事。。。

你就是我的天使。。。

你就像天使一样，给我依赖，给我力量。。。

如果能有一天，再一次重返光荣。。。

记得找我，我的好朋友。。。

伙伴们，好不好？让我们再次拯救地球。。。

老地方相见。。。

如果你发现你还有留恋。。。

MC-KFC的篱芭外，我们肩屏着肩，紧握的手里面有好多明天。。。

认识你五月的天，梦开始鲜艳。。。

一长串的心愿，我们一天一天，慢慢实现。。。

我们甩掉地球，地球甩掉。。。只要越跳越高。。。

只想越跳越疯，越跳越高，把地球甩掉。。。

come on,JumP!

请你把头抬起来，帮你把勇气装满。。。

有你我的陪伴，一起终结孤单。。。

那样的回忆，那么足够。。。

谢谢你，教懂我知足的快乐。。。

JuMp!让我们一起私奔到月球。。。

让我们一起离开地球表面。。。To Find Our Paradise。。。

我们会有一起跃过城墙的一天！

最小的事；最重要的事

[你，07年的生日。。。我们的猪样~哈哈！]

[829，眼镜军团成员之一 - Evelyn，在redbox的庆生会上。。。]

[Wilson's CS 的lecture。。。我们的棒棒圈-Lollipop。。。]

[PD的那道墙，我们的屁股。。。Lol ;p] [Transformer 后的Kenny Roger's 大餐-Tongue Out!]

[眼镜军团大姐-嘉怡，在槟城Batu Ferringhi 沙滩的生日party。。。]

[我们都说好，会一起越过城墙的。。。就在不久的将来！我相信。。。]

[共享的士林开心套餐。。。]

[08年，527。。。祝你生日快乐！]

人间

2008-06-26T04:16:00.003+08:00

4点多了。。。

如果你，和我一样寂寞。。。一样在感叹人生。。。

来吧！为我们更深一层的寂寞，干杯！

送你一首歌。。。

我的第一个偶像，第一个让我最想拥有她的专辑的人-王菲。

《人间》
风雨过后不一定有美好的天空
不是天晴就会有彩虹
所以你一脸无辜不代表你懵懂
不是所有感情都会有始有终
孤独尽头不一定惶恐
可生命总免不了最初的一阵痛
但愿你的眼睛只看得到笑容
但愿你流下每一滴泪都让人感动
但愿你以后每一个梦不会一场空
天上人间如果真值得歌颂
也是因为有你在才会变得闹哄哄
天大地大世界比你想象中朦胧
我不忍心再欺哄但愿你听得懂
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。 x 2
但愿你会懂该何去何从

p/s: 该睡觉了啦，晚安~

笑吧! =)

2008-06-26T03:42:00.005+08:00

凌晨3点钟。。。

今夜，我觉得既寂寞，也既不寂寞。。。很矛盾吧？！lol ;p

寂寞，因为近期有太多事情需要处理了。。而我，很逊的。。。处理不好。。

不寂寞了，因为身边有同样寂寞的人们陪我一起寂寞。。。

最近，真的很累。。。

好想松懈一下下啊~！

人生几何？

再累，都要笑一笑嘛。。。

笑一笑，没烦恼。。。

而且，我发现这一招很管用噢！因为当我脸带笑容地对人笑时，他们紧锁着的眉头也会展开，然后回我一个笑容。。。

这样，我就开心了。。。

笑吧~！

七彩。彩虹

2008-06-18T02:28:00.006+08:00

七彩。。。缤纷的七彩，被我给遗忘了还是它弄丢我了？

突然想起，[Seeing Rainbow in Thunderstorm] 这名字。。。

这不就是意味着在狂风暴雨后，方才会有绚丽的彩虹吗？七彩的彩虹。。。

我的人生调色盘，是时候加点颜色了！

我会为我自己彩色！

红~橙~黄~绿~蓝~靛~紫 , 都跟上了吗？可别把我给弄丢了呀！

the black friday

2008-06-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

黑色星期五- BLaCk FridaY

Today is really really not my day...Since i woke up,luck had gone its way...

From taxi incidentsss ( i was being cheated and fooled by taxi driver 3 times a day ler and each time is different races of driver-malay-indian-chinese ) SIAO~~ == Each time also make me need to pay eXtra ler....really felt like wasting and damn frus larh~

went for movie also need to pay eXtra...Sigh~

really spoilt my mood larh...din even have mood to shop also dy...

By the way,watch KungFu Panda with Ah Ai at MV juznow...

It's quite a comedy that can slightly support me some pills of laughing...

and later on,attend Mr Liew's tutorial...His tutorial is always short but i love his quotes...he always have good quotes and teach good lessons of life...and he awake me with some of the quotations...

Class end earlier and i had fun with Ah Ai to take over the whole classroom...lol

We had some 'chi xin' photo shooting sessions...and the outcomes of those pics are really really lame and funny....but frankly,it works to lighten up my day!

Mr Liew's quote of the day : "Never look back!Never!Whatever over is over!"

KungFu Panda's quotations : "There's no secret ingredients.There's nothing.It's just YOU!

You just have to BELIEVE! You must BELIEVE. as long as YOU

BELIEVE!!!"

YOU can make yourself special.If you believe you do!

Attach are some of the 'chi xin' pics...Enjoy...Have a laugh =)

[The Guru]
[she finally qualify me as The Master....hohoho xp]

[Prof Ai presenting Shadow's of the Dragon Warrior]

["Abu neh?"]

[You drive me crazzzzzzzzzzzzy!Argh!!]

[Ah Ai said our pose like the poster of the movie "Secret"]

*Lastly,gonna thanks to Ah Ai for cheering me up and so kind of her to edit those pics for me....

I still prefer to call you Ah Ai laa...Ching Ai de.... XD

stresssssss VS wantssssss

2008-06-12T01:49:00.007+08:00

STRESS!!!
STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!

i am so stressed!
i just wish that i am able to done well in everything i did...tho i realise that it's quite impossible...
i just wish that i can have time for everyone...
i just wish to live more lively...
i just wish to have smiley to put on everyday...
the wish list goes on and on ~~~~~~~~

that i just wish to be good...
that i will be .... good~
That i want it ALL!!!

I Want What I Want!!!

Thank you,angels of mine =)

2008-06-05T00:12:00.004+08:00

Thank you,my dear angels!
Thank you for being there to raise me up and be there for me when i'm in need...

I was sick few days ago...
At first,i thought that 1 litre of 100Plus should be enough to cure and reduce the heat...Manatau,it's getting worse the next day...
I was in semi-conscious while on the way walking back to the apartment from lrt station...
And,i faint!i mean,almost laa...My vision starts to get blurr and i fell down...
Felt so helpless at that moment....but i tried to tell myself to stand up and move on,at least,safe to get back home!
Shameful to say,i cried when rang the phone to JC while he's working...
After examined by dr,said dr...I'm really critical...My body temperature is 40 degree and i vomit blood and yet i go to uni....he asked am i crazy?!
JC warned me not to go to uni the next day and i just lying on the bed like dead body for about 16 hours...

Anyway,
Thanks,Jia Yi...for answering my calls,console me...calm me down...
Thanks JC for bring me to see doctor and take good care of me...
Thanks Kallen for being so so caring to change wet towel for me to reduce my heat during night time....
Thanks 'Whisky' for being a good pharmist..lol...ex-pharmacy student..okay,thanks for ur advise...
Thanks Phoebe for being concern about me.Although u can't come from that far,but i know that you are sincerely care for me...
Thanks Iris,for being so sweet to cheer me up when i was alone loitering around at KLCC due to heavy rain out there...ur sms is sweet enough and it popped up at the very right time to cheer me up...
Thanks Jiez for lending me your helping hand and be my 'kuli' for 1 night to help me move my things back...hehe
Thanks Ah Ai for introducing yourself to me and hope my life in Help won't be boring with your appearance there...
Thanks Jian Xin for your attemp in helping me to look around for room...
Thanks 5th aunty for being concern about my condition here...
Thanks Josie and Sheany for being such a good friends of mine...
Thanks Xiao Zhen for being concern...
Thanks Phan for your offer and being helpful...
Thanks Andrew for your silly joke...hehe
Million million thanks to all of you.....

There're once that i felt so hopeless in life and been drowning....
Luckily,angels light up my way...
YOU are my ANGELS!
Love you guys ^^

Vienna

2008-06-01T12:04:00.003+08:00

I think i am sick dy...fever,sore throat and vomit this morning...
Anyway,it is 1st of June...should be a good month...
Found myself a good song...

Billy Joel- [Vienna]

[Slow down you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be before your time
althought it's so romantic on the borderline tonight

Too bad but it's the life you lead
You're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong
You know you can't always see when you're right

You got your passion,you got your pride
But don't you know that only fools are satisfied
Dream on but don't imagine they'll all come true

When will you realize
Vienna waits for you ]

[维也纳会永远等着你]
我想维也纳可能代表每个人心中的一个理想。
只要你有心，只要你还在努力，你的理想就会永远等着你。

[Vienna waits for me]

news...but bad news

2008-05-31T14:56:00.008+08:00

Somebody is stepping my luck!!!
It's sucks!
It's sh!t !!!

Received lots of bad news...and bad things keep on happening on me...
I tried hard to be optimistic but each day i wake up,the condition is getting worst!
It's been 3 months i didn't have period!
Pregnancy thingy is not the thing that i need to worry about coz i'm not involve in any sex relationship BUT my skin is getting worst due to this problem...Dr's medic cannot work,productssss cannot work,hormone cannot work..
Oh Gosh!I'm so so abnormal...

Why har??suddenly seems like things change to become worst le?
Somemore,i cannot rent the room that i wish dy coz it's being rent out to other people dy...
So,means that after 10June,i got no place to stay...
Staying with my cousin at Cheras now is already a BIG problem for me to go to uni everyday and i felt guilty to disturb him for that long too...
i need a place to settle down..tired of shifting here and there...

and besides,i really miss those good old days where i used to have when i was in UTAR with that bunch of piggie doggie friends...
miss those moments that i used to have...
don't think that i will have that kind of life in Help...

Woke up this morning,with lots of problems need to be solve and other stupid stuff spinning in my head,suddenly...feel like giving up in life!
I don't wish to continue my life like this...like now...it's completely unacceptable...and it's really SUCKS!
feel like commit suicide...just cross the road and let the car bang on me then done!
i'm done and gone!

I'm not happy...
I never happy ever since i came back to here...
Don't know how to make myself happy...
My cheer leader is not here...
Everyone is busy with their life,so as a half adult,i know that i should handle all this stuff my own and overcome it...
perhaps,give me sometime...
As Jen said: This is just a beginning...Everything happen for a reason and i happen to be in this world with this sucks situation now is also must be some reason behind...
So,i still need to keep it up and learn to be tough...take it as a trainning programme lor...
Someday,Sometime,Somewhere...i will know..
and it should be a very good reason to explain my WH questions...
better be something that worth my waiting!

No news is good news = )

seeking H A P P I N E S S

2008-05-29T23:11:00.002+08:00

Another day had gone and passed away...
I feel not right...
I feel down...
I feel abnormal....
I feel strange...

I don't know why do I feel that way....
I am depressed!
I lost my way and lost of directions...lost of confidence to go on...
Suddenly,i feel a failure of life...

It's my first day attend classes at HUC...
It's a completely new environment,new faces to me....
Half way to my dreams getting closer and nearer but to be honest,i didn't feel happy...
I don't feel that i like this place...but there's no turning back for me....
I need to go on,and i know that,realistically!
Didn't eat anythg since i wake up till end of class at 2pm....
and while i was waiting for bus to go back,it started to rain,HEAVILY....DAMN!
Since i didn't have umbrella,i cannot walk back to the place i stay ritenow as i used to walk abt 10 mins from lrt to my 'home'...
So,I need to get a place to go...

So,I go to KLCC alone...
Walking alone in the crowds,with no destination,I feel EMPTY.LONELY.WEIRD.
I don't know what to do or what should i do...
Perhaps,i can call someone for date...blind date or whatsoever... but it's really pointless to date with someone that is not my favour...It won't help any to make me feel any better or happier...
I don't want to waste ur time...I don't want to give any false hope to anyone of you and then end up hurting you and myself....
I am tired of the so called 'love game' or 'trap' of desperado...
I am depressed,lonely and need love BUT I AM NOT DESPERATE!
Sick with desperado and guys with 'come and go' hurting me...
Perhaps,i am really a bloody idiot to make believe that true love does exist and they are sincere.
It's all just an illusion...and when the picture gets clearer,it's time to AWAKE!
Naive in love is my weakness and it's time to WAKE UP and be REALISTIC!
I don't even want to spend any wasted second with people that are not my favor.
So,if i ignored u,u better b smart a bit...STAY AWAY FROM ME!

My family went to travel overseas dy and i am really alone here.
I need their support...I need to talk and share with them everything here with me...
I need them to shower me with love and tell me that everything gonna be alright and i can do it fine...
I miss them badly...
No matter what happen,their love that shower me is EVERLASTING and will not change...and i realise it,each day i grown older...
Dad and Mum and my adorable siblings,they mean the world to me...

Gladful to say,i owned some good friends...
My friends might not be many,but they are all really good friends...
Luckily i met them and are friends with them...
Everything that they did for me really touch my heart and thousand words of 'thank you' is not going to be enough to dedicate to them for their helping hand whenever i was in need.

Every Failure brings a step closer to Success~
Fitness First coach said: When I am sad,I work harder!
So,Xinyi...work harder!!
I shall see the light of happiness is waving hand welcoming me in this near future = )

recent updates

2008-05-16T20:54:00.002+08:00

又过了一个周末了。。。唉~我还在懊脑着该去哪，怎样才会做到最好。。。很烦哩！

但想想，比起那些可怜的四川灾民还在为了生存而挣扎，自觉自己幸运也幸福许多。。。
我确实应该感到庆幸。。。那一些小小考验算什么？！没什么，熬一熬，咬紧牙关，跟自己说，都会过去的！

我家这一区的电话线被贼偷了。。。不能上网。。。害我瞎无聊的。。。
原想翻阅九把刀的《月老》的，却被妈给叫去干活了。。。
妈叫我去煮绿豆糖水要拿去慈济仪卖，积点功德。。。
换作是以前的我，或许我还想懒散，堵多推塘。。。但今天我没有。。。
近来，想了很多。。。很多人都跟我说我妈很疼我，甚至友人羡慕我妈可以对我做到有求必应。。。
哈~没有那么夸张啦！“有求必应”？？？那不就比拜神还灵？？
但是，说实在的，妈真的很疼我。。。我是知道的。。。
她为我付出了那么多，我不该再对她小小要求而埋怨。。。况且，她只不过是真心地为我好。。。
所以呢，可以做到的，我都会尽责。。。
假期以来，每天都会陪妈去做晨跑。。。今天周末，那就帮她洗地板吧！
洗了（42 x 90）方尺的地板，一个字，爽！洗地板期间，亦忆起了童年时和心怡一起洗澡时用肥皂泡来滑她家洗澡间的地板。。。回想起来，小时候的我们真的很好笑。。。哈~ （Y雨，你该不会怪我写在这里吧？！）
体会到妈妈的伟大。怀胎九个月不好过，扶养孩子成人更不容易。。。
所以,虽然母亲节过了，还是很想说：

妈，母亲节快乐！
愿天下所有的母亲都可以健康快乐！

结束了。

2008-05-06T16:21:00.001+08:00

坐在这角落，心里很多话想说。。。
爱不在，应该让自己从回忆中离开。。。
爱不在，我们都已不存在在彼此的未来。。。
有时候，不管对爱还有多少的依赖，就算再不愿意再伤心，我明白我们只能分手。。。
不舍得放手，是我的错。。。
选择掉进这无底洞的人是我自己，是我的错。。。
任由自己的眼睛见证那残酷的事实，是我的错。。。
相信你，也是我的错了吗？？？
我的天真，是我的错。。。

和你分手后，我的心就好像放了一颗炸弹，炸了一个大洞。。。
然后你又出现，害我的伤口又再次斯裂了，让我痛得无法意识这只是一段感觉，已经不是爱了。。。
所以，从现在开始，我们感情归零。。。
我真的再也没有多余的心力去爱或恨你了。。。

此刻，聆听着罗忆诗的《别再哭了》。。。

结束了，就不该再拉扯。。。
结束了，我该往前走，去拥抱那属于我的天空。。。
有一天，我将拥有一双燃烧着火焰的美丽翅膀，在天空傲翔。。。

0707196 献眼镜军团

2008-05-01T13:27:00.000+08:00

眼镜军团六人行

那晚，我们都和烟火一样，笑得很灿烂。。。
我们的笑容可以拯救彼此的失落。。。
旦愿那一刻可以永恒。。。

此刻，我在聆听着《仨人》。。。
我们相识的时间并不长，但喜怒哀乐尽尝。。。
因为有你，染上新的幽默。。。
也因为有你，世界变得轻松。。。
我们属于非常难得。。。

朋友，谢谢你们这些日子以来带给我最真挚的感动。。。
我们共同拥有过的回忆会陪伴着我一生。。。

离别前的最后一张合照。。。

回到家，一个人，打着短讯给在回KL路途中的朋友。。。

打着打着，泪就流了。。。

了解人有悲欢离合，但我还是会不舍。。。真的很不舍。。。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

晓吉力说她坚信这不是最后，所以泪不可以流。。。

Evelyn说：我们不是解散，只是暂时分散。。。

有一天，我们一定会再相聚。。。

细细回味一起度过的那些日子，我们都笑了。。。

这一次，一定会比烟火来得更灿烂。。。

别了，0707196。。。

悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来;

我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩。（徐志摩）

但我不是徐志摩。。。

the rain

2008-04-22T10:04:00.000+08:00

It's raining now...raindrops~ lotsa raindrops~~~
Staring out from my window pane...
listening to Leona Lewis - Yesterday...
Suddenly,all the memories holding me back,again...

I'm not sad.no longer crying...
I can still find strength to keep myself going on...
There will be someone that is destine for me,one day...
I'll be waiting...

P/s : tomorrow need to sit for final ler...need to continue study to score well for my CGPA...
take a shower and i shall continue study dy...ciao~

夜来疯

2008-04-15T14:42:00.000+08:00

夜的来袭，抱着熊熊入睡才能感到安心。。。

对你的眷恋，也只有一个人的时候才会层现。。。也只能够把熊熊抱得更紧。。。

当你觉得我冷漠的时候，你会否明白那是因为我还在乎？

承认我是弱者，不敢再对爱假设。。。

带着一颗平常心，不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛。。。

不想当 Miss D ( Desperado ) 。。。不想随便牵起一只手然后又分手。。。

太容易得到手了的爱，会比较不懂得珍惜吧？！

不会再问为什么。。。我知道我只能一直往前走。。。

熊熊会一直陪着我。。。

恋空

2008-04-10T17:28:00.000+08:00

刚看完了一部日剧叫<<恋空>>。。。

很久没有如此地感动到哭了。。。

夜深人静，一个人烧日剧到哭。。。

这部片让我找回了以前最单纯地感动的感觉。。。

我还可以相信吗？

还会有那么地单纯，美好的感动吗？

我看着今晚的夜空，湾湾的残月发出光芒，满天的星星在闪耀着。。。彷佛对着我笑了。。。

今夜的天空是温柔的。。。

一张纸条

2008-04-10T08:05:00.000+08:00

今天，遇上了些不顺心的事。。。大学的申请手续有麻烦了，我的留学梦就只差那一步。。。
我犹豫了。。。我究竟在干着些什么。。。没有梦的人生还剩下些什么？！
在我猛啃着苦味巧克力的当儿，我的室友为我送上一本书，附送着一张小纸条。。。

纸条上是这样写着的：
-人，来到世界上，是为着学习新事物，并借着学习新事物，来提升自己的灵性境界。

-事情总是来来去去，有些事带来一些快乐，有些则令人不悦。但不论发生什么事，一切都会过去，都会结束的。* 都会有解决的一天。

-任何你没学会的功课，都会以不同的面貌不断地出现在你生命中，直到你学会这门功课为止。

晓真，谢谢你。

因为你，我在脑子里列下了许多美好的清单。。。
想想，才不想让一朵小乌云把我的整片天空遮蔽呢！
我会努力做好我的功课，直到老天批我及格为止！
如果要累积100个不如意来换1个如意，那到时候一定要给我最好，最好，最最最好的！

每一个问题都是上天的恩赐 ~
Your Disappoitment is HIS Appointment ~

喵~喵~喵~

2008-04-09T16:12:00.000+08:00

喵~

没什么，只是突然很想撒娇。。。

想抛开所有的束缚，任性地撒娇。。。。

刚挂了我的SotplaK导师-嘉怡的电话，连她也说我SotplaK了。。。lol
每天都要装出一副铁金刚的样子，偶而SotplaK一下也好嘛。。。

每个人接起话筒第一句总会问：“有什么事吗？”
非要有事才可以找你们吗？
有时候，有些事只不过是个借口。。。
所以，请你们下次不要冷漠地逼问我有什么事了。。。
我不过是想听听你们的声音。。。
会有这么的时刻，是我想你们了。。。

天气冷得快冻成冰了。。。
现在最想去一个地方------〉情人温暖的怀抱。
可我现在没有情人啊，只好躲到被窝里暖一下下咯。。。

喵~

谁又会拾起我的飘流木？

喵~喵~喵~

静璇说我这张照像猫。

没错！我其实天性像猫。。。

偶儿，我会很慵懒，我会撒野，更本领撒娇。。。

可是，我却是个不会捉老鼠的猫。。。

喵~~~

裕希

2008-04-09T04:17:00.000+08:00

有好消息！有好消息！妈刚告诉我Tsuchida一家人下个星期将回来待几天。。。
Yeah!兴奋~我很兴奋~ la la la ~~~
我会见到Yuki吗？
那个把我的名字写在沙滩上，跟我鸡手鸭脚比划着的裕希。。。
好久不见，他会不会跟以前一样地Cool？
裕希啄着口香糖，赛摩多和赛车的样子最酷了！
我们都长大了。这一次我们还会用“石头`剪刀`布”来打赌吗？
很期待我们的再次会面。。。; )

如果有去海滩，我们再一起找螃蟹洞，捉螃蟹，好不？

看我99变~ lol

2008-04-07T16:11:00.000+08:00

朋友问: How's life?
我答: C-O-N-T-E-N-T-E-D !! Yeah,i live a contented life lately = )
活着真好。原来每一天都可以过得如此充实。。。

近来忙着培养书卷味，女人味，也包括SotplaK味。。。哈哈哈~
都多得一群Sotplug的piggie doggie friends...lol
这几天常逛The Garden 的Borders书局。。。一呆，就是一整天。。。差一点就要被那儿的Starbucks和The Borders black-listed 了。。。lol

在Starbucks看书时拍的。是不是多了份书卷气了呢？嘻嘻。。。
我还要看很多很多的书呢。。。还有很多没有看完。。。我正和书恋爱啊！

够不够女人味？！不够我再加！！ XD 变！变！变！仙女棒会让我见证魔法，摇身一变，变白，变漂亮。我要像李嘉欣一样，那么地女人，迷人。。。 = ）

快乐可以是自找的。

我的每一个“今天”都和shinny peoples度过。。。

我笑了。。。也"siao" = "sotplak"了。。。lol

Delete昨天的烦恼，

Select今天的快乐，

Log In明天的幸福。

你Delete了吗？也Select了？那就快Log In了吧？！

笑一个吧！（要露出牙龈的那种噢！）

= )

I belongs to myself

2008-04-06T14:54:00.000+08:00

理智上，人，是独立个体的。
你有权保留你的隐私，有权拥有你的自由，有权追寻你的快乐，有权选择你自己的人生，更有权不爱我。。。
可惜，爱情是会让人不理智的。。。
而你，往往都很理智。。。
所以，我们不曾属于彼此。。。
We are never belongs together.

我不傻。
当你不爱我，我不会继续守候。不会守候一段已经消逝了的爱情。
即使再怎么放不下也好，我再也不想当傻瓜。。。

承诺给得太轻，那些也只不过相同于谎言。

你不是我的Lego,so I let you go。。。

and I belongs to myself,back again...

在家的心情写照

2008-03-24T13:16:00.000+08:00

城市里，花花世界的灯火虽然诱人；但我一个人，是寂寞的。。。
回到家里，我有家人。。。我，不是一个人。。。

在家里，弟妹们嬉戏的欢笑声，爸爸深沉的教诲声，就连妈妈的唠叨声。。。都会温暖我心房。。。
这几天，我很努力地当个好女儿，好姐姐。。。
我想成为你们的骄傲。。。
我想要你们开心因为有我的存在。。。

妈，对不起。。。请你多忍耐一下下。。。请你再给我多一点点时间。。。请你一定要相信我。。。
我在学习中。。。在成长中。。。在改善中。。。
人生还未到尽头，一切判断未免有点太早了吧？！
留得青山在，不怕没柴烧。
所以，不要放弃！
时间可以为我证明。。。我可以！！

GiVe me OnE MoMenT in TimE,When I'm mOrE thAn I thOuGht I cOuLD Be~

Like Flowers,though I may not be as great as early bloomers,but I will definitely BLOOM one day!

My Whim and Fancy

2008-03-17T06:33:00.000+08:00

Thought of going to Matta fair and get a haircut with Phoebe yesterday...but just end up with shopping only...again,shopping!

I hardly fall with any stuff with LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT...but i did today!for a BCBG watch!!
i wore my Swatch for years dy...and it's still in good condition...that's why i did not plan to look for any new watch...About 2 years ago,i like a Fossil watch but yet,i didn't go for it because my lust for it is not strong enough...but today,the BCBG really make me feel irressitible to own it.

~My Lust.My Desire.My Want~

My future desire for watch gonna be Longines.But i can't afford to own it rightnow yet.Besides,wearing a Longines at this age like me will be a bit too mature dy.hehe ^^

I never stop thinking about owning it,but yet i am not willing to go for it.It's Christian Dior-Dior Addict 2 perfume!It's just an EDT fragrance but it's so damn expensive!The price make me say no-no to it but i'm really craving for the scent!!

The Scent that I will never forget :

~The Radiance.The Tenderness.The Sensuality~

Another future desire of fragrance gonna be Chanel-Chance!
Besides,i'm also aiming for a Gucci handbag...Perhaps,u gonna spell me S-P-O-I-L-T!
Whatsoever,it's all just my Whim and Fancy.
I'm going to take the job to work at PC fair and maybe some other part time job in future to satisfied all my wants because I WANT WHAT I WANT!

Since I'm turning to 21 this year,I am more assure about what i want for my future.

A for A grade types of life!

F for Family and Friends!

G for Glitters!

H for Health!

L for Lush and Love!

Q for Quality!

S for Smiley = )

W for Wisdom!

Z for Zest!

and i'm going to make my DREAM COME TRUE!

With great wisdom,i will be able to embrace all the good things in life!A to Z!

Showtime!

2008-03-06T10:33:00.000+08:00

There are some nice movie that I'd watched lately...thought of sharing here...It's real nice and worth your time and price of paying for it.

Watched with Sheany at Gurney during my holiday.That time was boring and we purposely drove to Penang to watch movie.While glancing all the movies that are release there,i thought that there will be no any nice movie...then Sheany suggested to watch .Luckily it didn't disappoit me..or else,i gotta put the blame on Sheany dy..hehe..kidding laa..lol.
Something happened that day...A nerdy formal-wear 'uncle' followed us at our back when we going to enter the cinema..and the 'uncle' sat beside me once i took my seat...where got so 'ngam' 1??!Argh!!!I really cannot 'tahan' him lorh...his coughing, the smell of salted fish comes from his place ( maybe due to his Hong Kong leg ) and some weird hamsap body language...eww~really irritate me!neither do Sheany!So,we decided to shift to other seat ( luckily,still got some empty seat )...and that NERD laugh loudly tho i don't think there's any real goofy scene.haih~~NERD!NERD!NERD! scarrrrrrryyyyyyy~

JUMPER:
Hayden Christensen stars as David Rice-a jumper that can teleport to anywhere that he likes.After running away from home,he learns to use his power to rob banks.Later after that,he's being haunted by Paladin that wants to kill jumpers...

my rate : ***

it's kind of entertaining action movie...not boring,i can say.In fact,a little trilling that excite me.not bad,duh~

Past weekend,Phoebe suddenly called at noon while i still asleep due to my tiredness of having pillow talks with my hostel friends till morning a night before.She called for a gathering as there'd been a long time that we didn't see Josie dy...So,we plan to have dinner together then watch movie after dine.Thought things will goes well and we will have a happy gathering after all...But hor,mana tau...Josie kena food poisoning at the very minutes...sigh~So,she didn't join us for our steamboat buffet and movie...pity her...

STEP UP 2-THE STREETS
Rebellious street dancer,Andie find herself fighting to fit in at the elite maryland School of the Art while also trying to hold onto her old life.Chase-the school hottest dancer,admire Andie's talent in dancing.They form a crew to compete in Baltimore's underground dance battle The Streets....

my rate : ****

This drama musical movie really makes me feel lively after watching it.Great dance move,lovable street boys,nice body and i had great pleasure.C o o l !

Last night,Phoebe invited me and Sheany for a preview of Singaporean movie...Her bro-in-law got 4 free tickets...so,she ask us along lorh...so nice of her...(huggies)..hehe ^^
We watched at Pavillion.At first we thought,cheh~Sg movie niah maa.....but the number of times the audience laughed showed that Jack Neo is very successful in directing the movie. I think Singapore film industrial should feel lucky to have him to raise up the industry.

Ah Long PTE LTD
Mark Lee was coerced to married with the loan-shark triad leader(Fann Wong casting).Mark Lee's sissy character in the movie really really funny till i cannot tahan to laugh aloud(paiseh~my ladylike image is spoilted dy..aiks//).By the way,i just get to know that 'Ah Loong' can be that creative with the various way of giving pressure to the money-lender to repay.Mark Lee's sissy body language and conversation did impressed me and enlightened me a lot!!it's so so so f u n n y !

my rate: ****

surprisingly surprise that i love this movie!

*p/s: i can't get the poster pic for dis movie yet.will upload it once i found it.

害怕

2008-03-02T16:49:00.000+08:00

莫名的恐惧感再次把我包围。。。我无法逃,无处可逃。。。
最近，我又发现了一些不寻常的现象。。。
我害怕。。。很害怕验证出来的结果。。。
害怕无法完成那些梦想。。。害怕没有未来。。。
害怕再也无法看见那些亲近的熟悉脸孔。。。

人生只活一回，生命不能够有take two。。。
虽然日子依旧平凡的过但我不懂我还可以有多少些这么的日子。。。所以我真的很珍惜现在的每一天。。。
回忆一直在我脑海中倒退。。。童年，少年，现在的成年。。。
谢谢那些陪我走过这些年的家人，朋友和小熊。。。
你们为我做的每一件小事我都会记得。。。会是属于我最重要的小事。。。

突然，今晚，我格外的想家。。。
很想见到爸爸，妈妈，弟妹。。。

日日夜夜陪伴我的小熊受伤了。。。
今天发现到他的右腿破了一个洞。。。我的心也破了一个洞。。。
= （

靠在你的肩总能让我感到安心~
有你真好~~

人，是否会因害怕失去而失去的呢？！

忙。茫

2008-02-05T05:31:00.000+08:00

忙~忙~忙。。。茫，我也很茫。。。
新年将至，我一点都没有喜气的心情。。。
只感觉很忙，也很茫然。。。
那些这些，另我感觉很累。。。
我好累。。。伪装自己，不说话，做个布娃娃。。。永远只会点头，从来学不会说NO的。。。布娃娃也会累，也会有出走的一天。。。
什么时候，我才可以撤底地离开？
我要走得远远的。。。离开或许会是我唯一的解脱。。。
反正我一点都不重要。。。我只是个布娃娃。。。可却是连摆设价值都没有的布娃娃。。。
昨天，真搞不懂是什么怪日子。。。
一大堆几百年前消失的人无端端跑过来跟我说些奇怪的话。。。
而我当时最想听到的话是千里之处的一把声音。。。
唉~这一口气有如千斤重。。。
我在你心中有如皮毛轻。。。
心淡了。。。。。。
我是不是应该解决那些盲点。。。往另一个方向走？

忙~茫~盲~

The missing 'inspiration' during my missing period~

2008-01-31T16:41:00.000+08:00

Been quite a time that i didn't update my blogs here.feel like writing all the time...but sigh~i need to save for the internet balance...my inspiration gone dy laa...

Finally...i finished my 2cd sem and done with my exam...
Don't know why...i didn't feel happy at all or unwaitingly wanna know the result that to be announced...perhaps,i didn't put my best footforward in the exam this time.Feel sucks actually.
and i'd been not feeling well when sat for Webpage Design paper and Writing for Mass Comm paper.the room is damn cold and my stomach is aching like hell during the exam.haih~

Don't know how the grades will be like...didn't dare to expect too high this time.afraid of disappointment...i can just pray that hopefully the result won't make me faint.i just hope that it won't be too sucks till i have to face the music from my parents...don't wanna make them feel that i'm a failure...just want them to be proud to have me as their daughter.i want and i can!

Started my holiday now...i have 3 weeks holidays...except Chinese New Year,wondering what should i do within this period...Don't really like to stay at home for too long.It's freaking boring and it makes me become more dumb laa...perhaps,i should come up with some holiday plan...hehe ^^
practising my belly dancing back again?go for a vacation?learn cooking?

i really really wish to go for a vacation...never feel so relax and have transquil feeling for a long long time already...i know that it sound silly for a student to have such claim.but please laa,student also experience pressure...and there're too many things running in my mind lately...i'm just too tired to think of those sort of things and i need to rest my mind.i found myself upset when i'm alone lately...loneliness is not the things that i'm afraid of...
i need assurance.i need security.i need you.more than you can tell...it's as simple things that as i need.

My old buddies used to comment that why i never try something new regarding with my image that never change since 10 years ago.LOL...and because that i feel like it's really time for me to try something different since i'm still young...so,guess what??i perm my hair!i make it curly from the top to the bottom...used to miss my straight hair that is easily manage and can comb every moment whenever i like...and some people did comment that my curly hair look aunty like at first...bit upset about that...but now,no more...i start to love it!and spend some time to figure out how to make it look nicer...hehe =p

say bye bye to my natural straight hair...
believe it anot,i never do a 'thing' on my hair before..never go for rebonding or treatment...i love the good condition of hair that i own..and that's the reason of make me ponder whether or not to curl it. ^^

Did i look different,completely?180 degree?? =p
Accept it or not,this is my new hair style.
I need to learn to accept it.love it.and manage it...hehe~

anyway,i really started to love it now!

No Expectation;No Disappointment.

B E 'L I E' V E

2008-01-20T09:21:00.000+08:00

aiks// i'm going through my emotion again,at this very moment.

Wake up in the morning,stumble on my life...
Can't get no love without sacrifice.
If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong,I can get to my sleep.
I can think that we just carried on.
I feel as if i'm wastin...

i made believe.for all these while,i'm trying hard to believe.
and now,i just realise that B E 'L I E' V E ...there's 'L I E' inside the B E L I E V E.

You would never ask me why my heart is so disguised?!
Senses never lie.I read from your sense of touch.
But you never get me when we get close.never read me from my touch.
This is the way that we love?No Hope, No Love, No Glory??
How the ending will be?will it be the happy ending that exclude me or our happy ending?

I feel...little bit of heaven;little bit of hell.
I just need little bit of love...little bit of love...little bit of belongings.
but end up that I realise that I never been belongs;never been loved,truly...whole-heartedly...

If you love something,set it free.If it comes back,it's yours.If it never,it never was.

Value of having~

2008-01-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

Another cold shivering night to go through for me tonight.
Actually,i was asleep justnow but awake at a sudden and and and...this lead me to write this blog lorh...hahaha =p

Accidentally met Jacinth at Forever 21 last week.It's been a long time never really have a quality chat with her face to face.Kinda miss those moments share with her during childhood times.We used to do lots of things together and some people claimed that we are like chopstick that always attached together and cannot be separated.hehe =p We go to school together,we rushing for tuisyen together,we bath together,we sleep together,we dream together...instead,there's too many to list as we really did lots of things together! = )
Still remember that her mum used to claimed that both of us sharing so many things together,hopefully we won't fall in love with the same guy in the future,or else it will affect our friendship.Aiyoh~won't laa...my taste & her taste is totally different la...somemore, now she already has a stable relationship with a guy dy...hehe =p Jacinth,just to let you know that our friendship will last,no worries.We gonna share stories again even when we grow old...stories about our other half,children & even cucu cicit...haha =p

Been hanging out quite frequent with Phoebe and Sheany lately too.
Phoebe,also my best friend since primary school...Really appreciate and treasure what she did for me,especially this recent 2 years.Phoebe,thanks for your helping hand whenever i'm in need...Really appreciate it heartedly...
*One more things to share...we ( Phoebe & me ) actually braced teeth together when we are 18...hehe=p

Sheany,another best friend of mine since secondary school.Sheany,thanks for those sharing and caring session that we go through...and the song that you sang to me today,i appreciate your effort in comforting me...thanks = )

Devil Peng,pity you laa...have to go for internship...or else,we gonna spend lots of happy hours together dy...hehe =p don't envy us...complete your internship then after that we gonna hang out together again...and thanks for your words of concern all the time...

Iris,though we are separated miles away but you have been keep me warmth with your concern all the time...and for all the 'incident' that we go through,our secret behind the 'pondok'...and that shape a stable friendship of us today... = )

so glad that i own such precious friendships of friends of lifetime.

When i came to UTAR,i'm worried...i wonder whether i will have a bunch of good friends to accompany me to go through the days in UTAR or not.However,luckily...I found them...Jiez,Jiayi,Amanda,Evelyn and JX.They guys are AWESOME!We do lots of incredible stuff in uni.Without them,my uni life must be very boring...We share true friendship...
laughter and tears,we have gone through all these together,even in this short period of time...i'm happy to have you all as friends...

Besides,i'd get to know that there're also a lot of friends who care about me...i'm appreciated & i'm touched...
I'm not Joey All Mighty who always go around to make friends.My friends might be few but they are all friends that i share true friendship with. = )

* the night is cold...the night is dark...however,thinking of friends,it makes me feel a little warmer...

i wish to give you warmth to accompany you to go through this long long night too...
at least,i know that i am meant to you...
if you are facing hard times,don't hesitate to share with me...even heroes have the right to bleed...
if you ever find yourself,lost and all alone...get back on your feet and think of me...i'm here.
see the world through your eyes,see me through your heart.Open your heart to see mine.

Be Appreciative

一个人。有个人

2008-01-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

深深的夜，打健盘陪我在这里“虚度”这一夜。。。
不是很哈周杰伦但《我不配》重复地被我点播。。。不懂为什么今天听着jay的歌，跟他一起咬词不清地朗朗上调，格外有feel。。。

刚才，又在学校emo了。。。朋友们都很关心我。。我都知道。。。感激于心。。。
有时候，我需要时间自己去消化一些事情。。所以才会表现得如此emo。。。
不要太担心。。。想通后，我自然OK = )

这世界有太多的不真实。。。太多的伪装。。。我要如何看清？如何分辨？我不懂，教教我。。。我需要你真实的告白。。。
我许的愿望很卑微。。。我只需要真诚。

懂我的人都知道我的心是易碎品。。。
给别人的第一印象，总是冷冷的，甚至有点“串”。。。那只是我自己的保护色。。。
不会随便亲近陌生人，也不会随便送上微笑。。。所以，请原谅我的不亲切。。。

这几天，感觉怪怪的。。。病例如：
曾经被冠为大胃王的我，竟然没有胃口吃东西。。。很想吐。。。肚子又不舒服。。。晕，缺氧。。。心也吊吊的。。。唉？！我现在没有时间生病啦，快要考试了嘞。。。
太多的事情得处理。。。
课本等着我，欢乐等着我，梦想等着我，成就等着我。。。你，也在等着我吗？
我要快点好起来，我要好好过！我要加油！！

有时候我们需要一个人，
有时候我们需要有个人。

Shopping Spree

2008-01-03T15:41:00.000+08:00

went for shopping spree with Sheany today,at Midvalley...

planning to buy the shirt that Jen spot at Geb...but hor,when i went to the shop to seek for the shirt,it's already finish sold out!!Argh!!!so damn geram laa...so regret why i didn't buy it that day...haih... = (

That day Jen said: " Aiya,this kind of shirt won't easily sell off de laa...ask jx them all de opinion first.." but what happen now?!other branch at Sunway also ady sold out all liao laa...haih...spoilt my shopping mood...

I miss the shirt badly~I WANT IT!but i won't gonna own it dy...it's sold off!!!too bad =(

This season shirts not really nice and after 'exploring' most of the shop at MV yet we buy nothing...So,we have decided to go to Bangsar to look for our "desire one"...

First time go to Bangsar Village Mall and the boutigue along the bangsar street...

Waw!it's really open up my eyes!Every boutiques there are so so unique with the decor and clothing.People might think that the clothing there must be extremely expensive...but let me tell you...It's not as what you think laa...

The price is affordable,design is unique,quality is very good & some are design by designers,some import from overseas!and one more thing,i found that all the people there are friendly and polite,unlike some salesperson in Sg.Wang who is so insisting want you to buy their cloth only but if you didn't buy,they will show their sour face and when you leave,they won't even say a word "thank you and come again later".haih...different culture..and that's make the difference~

Sevendays shop's owner tell me that i look sexy with this dress wor.She claimed that Angelina Jolie wear like this too ler...=P but i still think that it's like wearing pj laa...so,i din buy it...

Some shops sell only one piece for one design...So,siapa cepat,dia dapat laa...and the most important part is you won't see others wearing the same cloth as yours as it will be your one and only...hehe =P

*Here are recommended few that i had visited: Oopsie Daisie, Mooie, Baci, Sevendays, Sew & Soul, etc...

Sheany bought a dress at Sevendays and i bought 2 tops at Baci for only rm98...satisfy with the bargain = )

Tired with shopping dy,feel thirsty as well...All the restaurant there look so nice laa but the price must be 'nicer'...ahha,we are judging the 'books' by its cover...but seriously,we don't really feel like wanna spent an expensive dinner there laa...So,Sheany suggested that we go for something light.End up with we went to Mango Mania.First time enter the shop,so the salesgirl treat us a free small portion of yogurt mango.SLurPpp~~it's nice!but we try another drink instead of it..We had try out Cube Cube Mango...For mango lovers,sugar free lover,it must be your favourite shop to visit!You shall have your irresistible mango treat in the shop!Have a try!= )

It was a great day shopping at Bangsar.Discover lots of beautiful shops,saw lots of leng luis,lots of pretty cars...but how come arh?i never notice any leng cais?aiks//i must be walking too fast and too excited looking at those pretty clothes & dining restaurant there dy...anyhow,it's never my habit to watch at handsome guy tho...coz 'yau tak tai,mou tak sek'..no use also laa...look for what?cheh~* i'm practical practitioner... =P

Don't JuDge A BooK by its CoVer

烟花

2008-01-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

在烟花降落的那一刻，我终于明白了。。。

如果我一直在原地等待，你会否回头找我？我一直等，一直等。。。

如果人生到了尽头，换你一句话，很足够。。。
但纯粹一直像白痴一样地空等待，而你却一直都没有出现。。。我，已经累了。。再也无法找出任何借口去掩饰你的谎言。。。只有一个理由，很显然地，你不爱我。。。

你，如果真的爱我，你不会这样不顾我感受地对待我。。。

该懂的，其实我早就懂。。。我一味地装傻，并不表示你可以任意的伤害我。。。

不会强求，不会再挽留，只因为我要给你最后的温柔。。我会对你说，我给你自由。。。

这一次，请你也让我走吧！不要和我说“再见”，也再也不想见！

2007，永远的2007，感觉跟从前想象的有点差距。。。
烟花，在2008绽放的那一刻，我告别了2007。。也为我们的故事画下句点。。。

烟花，很灿烂。。却也很短暂。。。

可不可以给我永恒的片刻？

我一直都很想去拥抱永恒。。。。。。

每当我觉得很靠近了，却一次又一次地让我摔跤。。。感觉很受挫。。

我已经不再相信了。。。

没有信心，也不敢奢望。。。

旦愿这一次，我真的懂得学乖吧？！

我不可以再像以前那样的懦弱。。。

新的一年，人生旅程的另一个起点。。。
我要坚强的走下去，去迎接那一些美好的未知数。。。
祝我心想事成吧！

Nothing last forever.
Nothing ends nicely, that’s why it ends…

1st time

2007-12-30T09:10:00.000+08:00

My ever first time blogging in Blogspot...
Just here to share things happen around me...
Welcome to my page and thanx for reading my blogs = )

iFeel hAppy and glad that my effort paid off!
After all the suffering and struggling,finally...wOhoO!!!WE MAKE IT!
It worth as it bears fruits!!
Gonna thanks to my group members as they make a great team!
and i'd come to know that i'd push too hard and make things happen to be too tensed up previously...sorry...
but hey,we did it and lay it great at last,right?haha =P
Coke Side of Life,not bad huh?
it was once sucks but recalling it back,i gonna thank it!
So,let's cheers for the glory!Coca-Cola Zero Rulez!!!

Coca-Cola Zero~ ReaL TaSte,ZerO SuGar!
bought at KLCC Isetan,imported from HK...
cost about rm 4++

The Joy of Working is Seeing Rainbow in Thunderstorm

StRawBerry BitEssssss

執着

Updates..of life and friendship

the time bomb! USE THE RIGHT WORDS!!

the decision

Goodbye?

the emo queen's crap

牙关

moving on with the days

misery

你不是真正的快乐

it's a long long journey

发生什么事啊？？?

爷爷

my October's jollity

The dancing of the RaiN / Pitter-patter of the RaiN

a day-saturday!

Scarcity

-untitle-

一场雨。雨一场

Sara

恋空3-我和天空谈恋爱

恋空 2

untitle

如果你也想起我。。。

0707116 最小的事

人间

笑吧! =)

七彩。彩虹

the black friday

stresssssss VS wantssssss

Thank you,angels of mine =)

Vienna

news...but bad news

seeking H A P P I N E S S

recent updates

结束了。

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the rain

夜来疯

恋空

一张纸条

喵~喵~喵~

裕希

看我99变~ lol

I belongs to myself

在家的心情写照

My Whim and Fancy

Showtime!

害怕

忙。茫

The missing 'inspiration' during my missing period~

B E 'L I E' V E

Value of having~

一个人。有个人

Shopping Spree

烟花

1st time

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